Venting I feel so lonely

[overmorrow]

im usually fine with being alone, but recently, as summer is starting to approach, feeling lonely is hitting me hard.

mostly, because of fomo, my entire life, I've wasted it surviving due to extremely unfortunate circumstances

never travelled, or had any impressive experiences, I'm the example of mediocrity, worked stupid jobs, barely had any friends, that's it

and it'll stay that way, and it'll keep getting worse, everyone around me has the privilege of having a wealthy, fullfiling life, I'll always be stuck behind, I'm absolutely nothing

the only comfort i have is knowing nothing matters, nothing will matter, we all die and eventually fade, forgotten by everyone, it helps
but not enough.

 

[Aknu132]

Yeah being alone hurts a lot, sometimes i think that of nowhere a person will appear in my life and see that i'm not okay and then we will become great friends but that's not going to happen, the "only" friend that i have is death, waiting me to go with her at anytime.