Discussion I feel so fkn angry that I can't ctb peacefully.

[fkyou]

I feel so fkn angry that I can't ctb peacefully.like this shit is a horror movie on it self you can't add anything to it. Partial Hanging.i need to make it pleasant so at least it feels human.how can you make me worry about yr ass when I'm trying to end my life peacefully. i want to do it at night cause that's when I feel most calm and I hate daytime. But I can't. Because there are people at night. At daytime is also not a guarantee cause these people may hear from downstairs. Why does any of this shit matters. Why I dont have something to drink and go in a warm clean bedroom.in the timing I want.To not worry if I may be heard. Why do these people personally benefit you in nothing but when it come to being against you they are there.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Mm, for the bedroom, I think that cleaning little by little can help. And yes, ppl are annoying, even when death wishes rise and fall

 

[looking4partner]

Same and I am jealous of the articles about people with the same diagnosis of me and with other conditions who were able to obtain & go through with a peaceful option or had a spouse that helped them.

And that if I had been born earlier, there would have been more available & effective methods that were also more peaceful, but they have now regulated almost anything and soon I will have even less access to options because of certain rules that are put in place.