I feel selfish

[Penelope12]

I want ctb as soon as possibile but I feel guilty about my mother. She Is elderly, Always has some health issue or other, and relies heavily on me. Besides if I took SN She's probably end up having to clean up vomit and diarrhea, She's tired. And no, I don't want to stay in a hotel. But I Just can't take anymore. I could have bene Happy, but I ruined everything. I keep dwelling on the past and the present Is horrible. What should I do?

 

[NZkiwi]

I want ctb as soon as possibile but I feel guilty about my mother. She Is elderly, Always has some health issue or other, and relies heavily on me. Besides if I took SN She's probably end up having to clean up vomit and diarrhea, She's tired. And no, I don't want to stay in a hotel. But I Just can't take anymore. I could have bene Happy, but I ruined everything. I keep dwelling on the past and the present Is horrible. What should I do?

it sounds like youre really overwhelmed right now, and im sorry.

i really dont know what to say to you, it sounds like a real difficult situation you are in <3

 

[Penelope12]

Sembra che tu sia davvero sopraffatto in questo momento, e mi dispiace.

Non so davvero cosa dirti, sembra che tu stia attraversando una situazione davvero difficile <3

Yes, and I'd also risk getting caught, Just like what happened before. Plus my SN has been opened for three months and I'm not sure if it's still good After sitting in a plastic bag.

 

[tamamshud107]

You can avoid that by doing it "privately" in a public setting i.e. your mother would not be burdened with clean up.

 

[Penelope12]

Puoi evitarlo facendolo "in privato" in un luogo pubblico, in modo che tua madre non debba occuparsi delle pulizie.

I don't feel like It. I prefer to die in my bed.

 

[Manfrotto99]

I tried to hang on for my mother - while I wish I had cbt and ended my suffering - I don't regret it because I don't have the quilt. I relieved my suffering by gardening and being with my dog. Every thing has gone now and I have no regrets or quilt now when I ctb. You can always ctb later if you can bare to endure for now.

 

[Penelope12]

Ho cercato di resistere per mia madre - e anche se vorrei aver fatto terapia cognitivo-comportamentale e aver messo fine alle mie sofferenze - non me ne pento perché non ho la coperta. Ho alleviato la mia sofferenza dedicandomi al giardinaggio e stando con il mio cane. Ora tutto è passato e non ho rimpianti né la coperta quando faccio terapia cognitivo-comportamentale. Puoi sempre fare terapia cognitivo-comportamentale più avanti, se riesci a sopportare di nuovo per ora.

I've been sick for Two Years. I never experience positive emotions, nothing but remorse and regrets. I don't feel like doing anything anymore. And my cat died too.