I know I know it's like my 3rd thread or something but I can't let it go.
my mom is such an absolutely sweet human, she has been through so much in her life and if I kill myself now, now that she's finally feeling better and finally starting to heal I'd ruin her life.
she met a guy and wants other children with him as me and my sister are already grown up and she wants to be mother again, this time healed from the trauma she has been through in her childhood.
now I'm wondering what I should do, I really don't want to wait and even if I do what if I will ruin her being a parent when she wanted it to finally be good?
how do I leave the human behind that did everything for me, that raised me so well and cares for me so much? I'm her everything, I feel so guilty but I really can't do this anymore, I really can't.
my mom is such an absolutely sweet human, she has been through so much in her life and if I kill myself now, now that she's finally feeling better and finally starting to heal I'd ruin her life.
she met a guy and wants other children with him as me and my sister are already grown up and she wants to be mother again, this time healed from the trauma she has been through in her childhood.
now I'm wondering what I should do, I really don't want to wait and even if I do what if I will ruin her being a parent when she wanted it to finally be good?
how do I leave the human behind that did everything for me, that raised me so well and cares for me so much? I'm her everything, I feel so guilty but I really can't do this anymore, I really can't.
