i feel ready

[willitpass]

i feel so ready to go. i desperately don't want to do this to my family two days before thanksgiving but i'll miss my chance if i don't do it today. fuck. i don't know what to do. i don't want to have to wait but i don't want to ruin thanksgiving for my family forever

 

[justwanasleep]

You sound panicked. I hope your ok. What method are you thinking ? Is this on a whim or planned ?

 

[Bah]

It is a difficult moment and you are the only one who can decide... I think that no matter the moment you choose, you will still cause pain to your family, it is inevitable.

 

[willitpass]

You sound panicked. I hope your ok. What method are you thinking ? Is this on a whim or planned ?

this is far from on a whim, i've had my plan in place for months and just have been waiting until i feel the time is right to do so. i plan on full suspension hanging deep in the woods using a rope with a 1100lb weight capacity and have already practiced the knots to ensure i am doing them correctly. i have notes written. and i have already spent nearly 10 years in many forms of treatment. do not worry, i did my part to ensure this was thought out and attempted to recover. i think i may be ctb on saturday do that my family can have one more thanksgiving with me

It is a difficult moment and you are the only one who can decide... I think that no matter the moment you choose, you will still cause pain to your family, it is inevitable.

it is an unfortunate truth. that is why i think i will be waiting until a couple of days after thanksgiving so they have the last memories of the holiday with me

 

[makethepainstop]

i feel so ready to go. i desperately don't want to do this to my family two days before thanksgiving but i'll miss my chance if i don't do it today. fuck. i don't know what to do. i don't want to have to wait but i don't want to ruin thanksgiving for my family forever

There is plenty of time, why not stay for turkey day. What harm could it do to wait a bit?

 

[justwanasleep]

I want to do full too. I hope it's quick if you do go ahead, good luck.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like a difficult situation to be in, but I wish you freedom for when the time is right for you to leave this world. It's understandable deciding to wait a bit longer.

 

[BipolarExpress]

If I were you, I'd try to hold on for Thanksgiving. Ultimately, though, that's your decision, not mine.

 

[Nirrend]

i feel so ready to go. i desperately don't want to do this to my family two days before thanksgiving but i'll miss my chance if i don't do it today. fuck. i don't know what to do. i don't want to have to wait but i don't want to ruin thanksgiving for my family forever

Hi sweet @willitpass

I'm sorry you're going through all this ❤

Disappearing is really a terrible thing, it plunges us into a loneliness, into remorse, into a great guilt...

I know that times are hard for you ❤

I hope that despite all this, there is still a way for you to be happy... ❤

Whatever you choose to do, I wish you the best ❤

Love ❤