I even feel lonely when I am around of my friends. Loneliness becomes worse if you are around happy people.
In my self-help group it almost slipped how lonely I feel. I think it is existential loneliness. No one can ever grasp how I feel no matter how many words I use to describe it. Someone had to change shoes to feel how I feel. But would this even matter?
I have 7-9 friends. I still feel lonely. I don't know whether romantic love would change it. I long for love.
I felt less suicidal when I had this close bond to the borderline woman I dated. It felt amazing. But I was co-dependent.
Currently, I am texting with someone new from a dating app. We text so much and it takes a lot of time. I am not sure whether I am fully happy with that. I keep the conversation going all the time. She does not contribute that much to our conversation. This feel draining. I feel lonely despite the fact we exchange more than 150 messages per day.
I noticed my social anxiety often makes connections difficult. It triggers so easily paranoia. The sensory overload is hard to deal with. It takes a lot of energy.
I always need input. Because my mind is so negative on me. The self-loathing is pretty strong.
In my self-help group it almost slipped how lonely I feel. I think it is existential loneliness. No one can ever grasp how I feel no matter how many words I use to describe it. Someone had to change shoes to feel how I feel. But would this even matter?
I have 7-9 friends. I still feel lonely. I don't know whether romantic love would change it. I long for love.
I felt less suicidal when I had this close bond to the borderline woman I dated. It felt amazing. But I was co-dependent.
Currently, I am texting with someone new from a dating app. We text so much and it takes a lot of time. I am not sure whether I am fully happy with that. I keep the conversation going all the time. She does not contribute that much to our conversation. This feel draining. I feel lonely despite the fact we exchange more than 150 messages per day.
I noticed my social anxiety often makes connections difficult. It triggers so easily paranoia. The sensory overload is hard to deal with. It takes a lot of energy.
I always need input. Because my mind is so negative on me. The self-loathing is pretty strong.
