Venting I feel like there should be access to a human and peaceful way to assist suicidal people

[deadngonehopeful]

I feel like there should be access to a human and peaceful way to assist suicidal people and give people an option to leave if they wanted. The crazy thing is they have it now but it's only if you get approved by a therapist a recommendation and obviously we all know they aren't giving it to anyway unless they are terminally ill. It's called MAID and it's legal in Canada, Switzerland annd other places but you know there's always extra crap to go with it. Just make it part of our own free will to take. They want to control EVERYTHING!

And I'm really upset because, 2 weeks I felt a quiet feeling in my body like a feeling of completion. I have been preparing for my death since then. I made that decision and my mind will NOT change that's why I haven't told anyone. Not that anyone noticed anyway but I genuinely feel that on top of being done with everything… I'm most definitely worth more dead than alive, which is insane.

This life shit is a trap, a prison, a living hell. They like to talk about heaven and hell. Well we are all currently living in hell right now.

FUCK LIFE, FUCK THIS SYSTEM THEY'VE CREATED, FUCK THE PEOPLE WHO THINK ITS OKAY TO TELL US "Oh you're just going through something it'll be okay, that's just how it is…. Push through" FUCK YOU!!!!! WHY NOT GIVE US THE OPTION SO WE DON'T FEEL TRAPPED. YOU WANT US TO LIVE FOR YOU. WHAT ABOUT WHAT I WANT.

They say suicide is selfish but what about you making me stay here so you feel better. I just want eternal peace, and considering you in my method because I don't want you tkk on find me bloody because I blew my brains out, neck and arms chopped up because I tried to bleed to death. I just want a peaceful death so I get what I want and I don't traumatize you. I literally feel like I'm in the passenger seat in my is body. I have spiritually, mentally separated from this body. It's on autopilot. It's sad.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as all I wish for is to peacefully not exist, I see so much cruelty in how such is denied with the suffering and torture of human existence seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I hope for is to not exist. It's just horrific to me how humans are forced to suffer in this torturous, futile existence with no acceptance towards the wish to never suffer ever again as all I wish for is no more pain and no more suffering, I'd always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this existence with no limit as to how much agony I can feel just to die tortured by old age, I always suffer so much from how guaranteed painless death is so cruelly denied for me as non-existence truly is all I personally see as positive and desirable.

 

[Still here]

Sometimes I think of not becoming a father coz I might end up causing someone untold amount of suffering.......

 

[depressedinsomniac]

this is what i will tell anyone who will listen until the beautiful day i overcome my si and ctb....or die from something else...it is certainly a hell realm. No other way to put it. It's hell. Sure you get your stretches of good times. But it's oddly designed to always just take the good times away from you some sorta way. Pretty much no matter what you do. Even if you are rich! But sure the rich have nicer lives. In some ways. But no not even the rich escape the hell realm truly. Can you survive it? Yes. It's hard. Now I am one of those odd cases where I had great mental health for the first 43 years. I am 44 now. Sure I had dips and lows but for the most part was always happy. Grew up dirt poor for the record. Once I lost my mental health i too became a proponent for MAID or however you want to put it/call it. What is it? Assisted ctb/death. It should be a dang human right. I think it should not allowed to be quick in the sense that you should have to go through a process. It should involve forced therapy to see if ANYTHING can be done to change one's mind. I think all sorts of things should be offered the person. Work. Food stamps. Housing. Disability. Cause let me tell you. Working with depression and insomnia? It's ROUGH! So I can totally see why people with poor mental health end up homeless. It's almost impossible to hold a job down. It's also very hard in USA to get disability. So it's kinda crazy if you ask me. But if after let's say 6 months of counseling and options the person is just like look I am sorry my head just can't take it. They should be allowed to ctb. In an assisted painless medical procedure. This should totally be a thing. Same for chronic pain/physically disabled people. The fact that people are instead tricked by Hollywood with poor methods shown in the movies/shows/comics/games stuff like slitting your wrists or overdosing on pills which usually fail is something else i just despise. What a world. The nutty thing it things just keep getting more and more expensive. Like they keep turning the temp on the thermostat in this hell.

 

[divinemistress36]

this is what i will tell anyone who will listen until the beautiful day i overcome my si and ctb....or die from something else...it is certainly a hell realm. No other way to put it. It's hell. Sure you get your stretches of good times. But it's oddly designed to always just take the good times away from you some sorta way. Pretty much no matter what you do. Even if you are rich! But sure the rich have nicer lives. In some ways. But no not even the rich escape the hell realm truly. Can you survive it? Yes. It's hard. Now I am one of those odd cases where I had great mental health for the first 43 years. I am 44 now. Sure I had dips and lows but for the most part was always happy. Grew up dirt poor for the record. Once I lost my mental health i too became a proponent for MAID or however you want to put it/call it. What is it? Assisted ctb/death. It should be a dang human right. I think it should not allowed to be quick in the sense that you should have to go through a process. It should involve forced therapy to see if ANYTHING can be done to change one's mind. I think all sorts of things should be offered the person. Work. Food stamps. Housing. Disability. Cause let me tell you. Working with depression and insomnia? It's ROUGH! So I can totally see why people with poor mental health end up homeless. It's almost impossible to hold a job down. It's also very hard in USA to get disability. So it's kinda crazy if you ask me. But if after let's say 6 months of counseling and options the person is just like look I am sorry my head just can't take it. They should be allowed to ctb. In an assisted painless medical procedure. This should totally be a thing. Same for chronic pain/physically disabled people. The fact that people are instead tricked by Hollywood with poor methods shown in the movies/shows/comics/games stuff like slitting your wrists or overdosing on pills which usually fail is something else i just despise. What a world. The nutty thing it things just keep getting more and more expensive. Like they keep turning the temp on the thermostat in this hell.

It took me 3 years and 2 hearings with a judge to get approved for disabilty for 644$ a month . Luckly I have supportive family and other income. I feel so bad for disabled folks that dont have that