Venting I feel like somehow hearing other people’s trauma has been a very big part in mine

[justanotherhuman237]

I didn't used to be sensitive to things, I honestly used to be a very cruel person who didn't care about anyone else, but them I went through some sexual trauma and that changed. Since then I feel like I notice everything and maybe I'm crazy but I feel like I know a lot, like I was enlightened. However that strange feeling comes with me noticing every bad thing in this world and getting severely triggered by it, what doesn't help is all the people close to me have severe trauma. They'll tell me there's and I'll comfort them but I feel like a small part of what they tell me just makes me worse. If I friend tells me they were beat as a kid, I'll think about it and think about it until I no longer trust any father. If I friend tells me they were assaulted, I'll lock myself away, terrified of the world. I feel like I'm a bad person sometimes because of this, they tell me they're problems and in turn I make it about myself by letting affect me. I don't know though, I became aware of how cruel this world was way to young and maybe that's what messed me up, I'm not sure.

 

[Wolf Girl]

Secondary trauma. I have it from being a counselor.

You must set boundaries to protect yourself. These topics must be off the table when speaking with your friends. It is okay that you are not equipped to handle this information. When I was younger, it was more common for people to set the boundary of not talking about trauma. Just because trauma dumping is considered normal now doesn't mean you have to allow it in your life.

Also, look into OCD if you haven't been evaluated for it already.