Venting I feel like my mental health is getting worse

[rotten_hrtz]

Every day I struggle with the feeling that I am useless, I try to be a fully functional person and do all the things I'm supposed to do, but I just feel worse. I just feel more tired and sleepy. I don't know if anyone else experiences this, but I fall asleep constantly, as if I'm tired all the time, Besides, my hair started falling out again and my eyelids are trembling; I can't stand that feeling.

I really do everything to act normal, my mom is worried because she notices it but I don't know how to explain it to her, I feel so inferior and depressed, and I'm even ashamed to tell my psychiatrist.I still remember feeling this way when I was 6 years old. I remember many times I would stop playing with my dolls just to cry because I felt empty and depressed, just like today.

Does this happen to anyone else? I think we all try to be functional, and it hurts when we can't manage it because of our mental health, but anyway, I just wanted to express it

 

[whywere]

All my life, I have had times where I feel like everything is going to hell in a handbasket and never heaven in a fruit basket, however in the long term, it all works out for the best and always moving forward in a good direction.

At least for me, it seems to be the paradox of life of good times and not so good times. But I always try and remember that beautiful sun rise and sun set and the knowledge that everything will work out for the best.

Depressed? Yep, a lot.

But feeling good and loving life to help others is just so intoxicating to me.

You are wonderful and you will bask in the sunshine, I believe this 100%

Walter

 

[Nolongerlive]

Every day I struggle with the feeling that I am useless, I try to be a fully functional person and do all the things I'm supposed to do, but I just feel worse. I just feel more tired and sleepy. I don't know if anyone else experiences this, but I fall asleep constantly, as if I'm tired all the time, Besides, my hair started falling out again and my eyelids are trembling; I can't stand that feeling.

I really do everything to act normal, my mom is worried because she notices it but I don't know how to explain it to her, I feel so inferior and depressed, and I'm even ashamed to tell my psychiatrist.I still remember feeling this way when I was 6 years old. I remember many times I would stop playing with my dolls just to cry because I felt empty and depressed, just like today.

Does this happen to anyone else? I think we all try to be functional, and it hurts when we can't manage it because of our mental health, but anyway, I just wanted to express it

Yes, i do feel the same way as you. Worse of all i have no one to turn to and i am on my own to survive in this world.

Recently i tried getting back to work, but the anxiety and worry overwhelmed me and i am totally couldn't sleep and had to quit the job just a few days into it.

Nowadays, i tried different minsets. I dont try to be "useful person" or "normal" to this society or surrounding people, instead i try to do whatever that makes me feels happy or peaceful . If people think that i am lazy or abnormal, that's their problem. Like i enjoy walking under the sun , so i do hiking often. Like i feels more easy in other countries , i travel with limited budget to neighbouring countries , and just doing nothing over there.

Of course i am still struggling. I am anxious of many little things, fear of change, indecisive . Have to take medication to help me to go on. But can't think too much of it. Live one day happy, better than worry each day.

 

[behindtheveil]

Oh so much! The feeling of being slower or not as smart as the next person, haunted me throughout my childhood days. That and the constant pressure and comparison put on by my father, pushed me to a dark hole. School was a nightmare, I simply wanted to run away, where , no clue. Just somewhere where people were kind and nice.
But as a grown up, I now realize that it was not only me, but everyone around me also faced a similar dilemma only they hid it behind a fake masked persona. Life is like that. I think it happens because we are clueless about it, about why we are here for and what are we supposed to do. I mean there wasn't any manual that came with us.
So yeah, feeling scared, unsure and clueless is quite natural. And the more we try to find answers to these questions, the more it weighs down on our intellect making us spend more energy, thereby leaving us tired and helpless.
What I've realized is that sometimes it's better to let go than to hold on to a notion. And breathe, simply breathe, no thoughts, no worries only pure calming breath, The rest, let the one who made us worry about it.