Discussion I feel like im making life worse for everyone. Desperate to ctb in a few days.

[dying_kwik2000]

I've just been panicking more often, crying, being erratic and I feel like im burdening everyone, especially mu sister. The feeling hurts and though I'm afraid of the pain of suicide, I need to get it over and done with because it feels like things keep getting worse.

Once I get money in the next four or so days, I'm going to kill myself and be at peace.

 

[Mortelles]

What's causing you to panick?

 

[dying_kwik2000]

My first reaction to that is everything. But honestly, it's money struggles, having to pay things, owing people, having to borrow money, having to sell my belongings to get enough money to pay things, not being able to get a job and feeling stuck in life.

I'm not handling any of it well and I'm making things worse for the people around me because I'm panicking, crying, thinking of hurting myself, feeling like I'm going crazy. On top of that I feel guilty for wasting people's time.

I pray to God and the saints for help, but it feels like they are not listening.

 

[braintorture]

no god or saint will come help you

However I think you should probably try to get professional help before you do anything yet.