Story I feel like i am in hell

[ineedtogetout]

I Suffer from multiple chronic illness and thats what causing me to be suicidal, everyday i wake up to being non functional and suffer from chronic discomfort and pain, i went to so many doctors, and non, litearlly non where helpful, i feel like ever single door is shut close for me, it feels like i reached the real end of the rope, yet dumb me still tried to make new doctor appoitments, to advocate and fight for myself even when doing so constantly failed until today, i want to commit suicide so badly and i dont even know what stops me at this point, i dont think.it is fear, i dont think it is lack of effective methods, i really dont know what but im so stuck

 

[tonicer]

I think what stops you is the human survival instinct.

 

[ineedtogetout]

I think what stops you is the human survival instinct.

Yes but after months or even years of constant tourture and after endless attempts to change my life which all failed it decreased

 

[madameviolette]

Chronic illness and pain is torture. Especially when doctors can't do anything. Hopefully I'll ctb soon

 

[ineedtogetout]

Chronic illness and pain is torture. Especially when doctors can't do anything. Hopefully I'll ctb soon

Do you also suffer from chronic illness

 

[madameviolette]

Do you also suffer from chronic illness

Yes and also brain injury. This is torture

 

[WhiteHorse144]

I feel you. Same here. I gave up with docs a long time ago. Went down all the trendy traps to try and heal alternatively as well. I found something ok tho thats keeping me alive but ultimately I wonder whats even the point. I know how you feel being stuck. And on top of it all, no-one really understands unless they're in it also.
I dont think your dumb for trying. What else are we supposed to do if alive right! The actual strength chronically ill ppl have is far more than is even realised.