i feel like all my friends hate me

[HappyPotato69]

like i only have one friend group and its online i could never make any real life connections and i feel like they hate me and ik they have a seperate gc and they crash out on me for being so annoying bc i keep pestering them to keep doing shit but i have no one else and i dont wanna make new friends for some reason. im just a lazy unemployed bum who has too much free time and i don't even have any money to ctb bc ideally i wanna do the sn method. im also trans and my bodys been raped by puberty and most trans ppl don't see it the way i do theyre so fake and they never say how shit and horrible it is to be trans im so reliant on my friends and i feel like they hate me and ill ctb as soon as i get the money

 

[tonicer]

... they never say how shit and horrible it is to be trans ...

Sorry for my ignorance but why is it so bad? When i was younger i always wanted to be a girl but the whole trans thing wasn't possible back then.

 

[HappyPotato69]

Sorry for my ignorance but why is it so bad? When i was younger i always wanted to be a girl but the whole trans thing wasn't possible back then.

society in general has a negative outlook on trans ppl, they view trans women as fetishists, and view trans men as tomboys at most. and supportive ppl feel fake, as if theyre putting up an act of gendering you correctly but they would never perceive u as ur actual gender. its just a grim situation if you dont pass. theres diy sources of hrt if u still wanna pursue that but yeah its just not good

 

[tonicer]

society in general has a negative outlook on trans ppl, they view trans women as fetishists, and view trans men as tomboys at most. and supportive ppl feel fake, as if theyre putting up an act of gendering you correctly but they would never perceive u as ur actual gender. its just a grim situation if you dont pass. theres diy sources of hrt if u still wanna pursue that but yeah its just not good

What do you mean with supportive people feel fake? I see lots of normal people wanting to help trans people and some even go into extremism for them and start hating normal people even at the risk of loosing friends or their jobs over it.

Not passing as the new you must be terrible but maybe soon there are ways to fix that? I mean we can regrow teeth now really easily. Just switch of one protein and a new tooth growths.

I have grow accustom to my male body entirely over time. I like how easily i can grow muscles for example. i think what made me dislike my male body was the overflow of testosterone i had as a teenager.