I feel guilty for posting femenine pictures of myself on social media just for attention

[Lou_Charthethird]

(Im M18 fyi)
Ik i shouldn't, but it seems like, even if its shallow, their validation is the only thing that makes me feel somewhat better about myself.
I want to feel pretty i want to feel cute,
But i also want to appease, i want to feel like im worthy of other's attention, maybe because i know deep down that im not.
I get so much creepy comments and i just play along just to fish for compliments from these pieces of shit, and its like, so pointless. I dont know why the only thing i value anymore is this. I dont even want a close relationship. I just want to be considered objectively worthy and adequate. So i make these thirsty posts of me flaunting my stomach and my thighs and the half second gratification of those likes and comments (ignoring the hateful ones ofc). Its like a never ending hole, something that will never be satisfied, because the truth deep down is i know im not worthy, thats why i have this inherent need to prove the opposite.

Or atleast thats how I should feel. In reality im posting pictures of femenine selfies and not caring about what that says about me. Because i am not me. This isnt me. I will never be me again

 

[Front Back]

(Im M18 fyi)
Ik i shouldn't, but it seems like, even if its shallow, their validation is the only thing that makes me feel somewhat better about myself.
I want to feel pretty i want to feel cute,
But i also want to appease, i want to feel like im worthy of other's attention, maybe because i know deep down that im not.
I get so much creepy comments and i just play along just to fish for compliments from these pieces of shit, and its like, so pointless. I dont know why the only thing i value anymore is this. I dont even want a close relationship. I just want to be considered objectively worthy and adequate. So i make these thirsty posts of me flaunting my stomach and my thighs and the half second gratification of those likes and comments (ignoring the hateful ones ofc). Its like a never ending hole, something that will never be satisfied, because the truth deep down is i know im not worthy, thats why i have this inherent need to prove the opposite.

Or atleast thats how I should feel. In reality im posting pictures of femenine selfies and not caring about what that says about me. Because i am not me. This isnt me. I will never be me again

It's pkay for men to feeling cute too you know

 

[Lou_Charthethird]

It's pkay for men to feeling cute too you know

But i feel this need to show it off, im desperate for validation

 

[Front Back]

But i feel this need to show it off, in desperate for validation

In a world where you can get rich getting attention there's no fault really in trying to get validation, You feel bad and that's good because at least your conscious mind can still thinks with logic. :3

 

[peacebenow]

I am much older than you but when younger I needed validation from men very badly. I am female. it is not uncommon in late teens, twenties, thirties. of course it has psychological roots but just saying it is very common. if you don't like how it makes you feel take note of it and be proud of having that awareness. don't be too hard on yourself,