I failed in my attempt at CTB with SN

[Cristiano599]

It's incredible that I can't even do this properly. I had everything ready, but just before drinking the SN, I didn't have the strength to do it. I ran out to hug my family, but guess what? A week later, I'm still here, just as eager to do it. I don't know what to do to keep from getting cold feet. I don't know if it's advisable to take something to avoid that damn survival instinct we humans have.

 

[Irisse]

Hey, don't blame yourself. Maybe deep down you still have hope and that's okay. I don't think anyone really goes into this 100% ready. I think the compound for avoiding SI are benzos but I'm not that knowledgable about methods so take it with a grain of salt or post some more until you unlock the search function. When you are ready, you'll know it.

 

[Cristiano599]

Hey, don't blame yourself. Maybe deep down you still have hope and that's okay. I don't think anyone really goes into this 100% ready. I think the compound for avoiding SI are benzos but I'm not that knowledgable about methods so take it with a grain of salt or post some more until you unlock the search function. When you are ready, you'll know it.

Thanks. I'll do more research and hope to be more certain. Perhaps the problem was that I tried it the same day my SN arrived.

 

[TheEmptyVoid]

It's incredible that I can't even do this properly. I had everything ready, but just before drinking the SN, I didn't have the strength to do it. I ran out to hug my family, but guess what? A week later, I'm still here, just as eager to do it. I don't know what to do to keep from getting cold feet. I don't know if it's advisable to take something to avoid that damn survival instinct we humans have.

My survival instinct from doing the 100% pure N2 nitrogen connected to the mask and I always am 100% certain I will do it in the middle of the night, and then I just don't do it because I don't know why, I think it's because either I will be found a lot early or I am just scared to actually die for some odd reason.

 

[strawberry931]

Alcohol lowers your inhibition.

 

[deathisneeded]

I thought you weren't supposed to take alcohol with SN?

Alcohol lowers your inhibition.