Venting I either drink myself to death in a horrific slow way, or I ctb in a better faster way

[KillingPain267]

Time is running out because all my mind can think about is running into the forest and just drink, further damaging my already weak body and disappointing my parents who will eventually take away all my freedom. So I have to get my method in order ASAP. It may be hanging. I cannot think of anything else than suicide or drinking. Constant barrage of thoughts.

 

[miyabi]

I'm with you. It was a difficult decision of SN or booze tonight.

What's your drink of choice? Do you find alcohol helps with the thoughts or makes it worse?

 

[KillingPain267]

I'm with you. It was a difficult decision of SN or booze tonight.

What's your drink of choice? Do you find alcohol helps with the thoughts or makes it worse?

I don't have SN or anything other than a bedsheet and a cold tree branch yet. And I have to abstain from booze to let my family think I'm okay. They already caught me drunk a few days ago. I'm tired of that happening.

 

[miyabi]

I don't have SN or anything other than a bedsheet and a cold tree branch yet. And I have to abstain from booze to let my family think I'm okay. They already caught me drunk a few days ago. I'm tired of that happening.

I'm sorry, it must be hard to live like that. I find alcohol helps a lot. Sounds like in order to convince people you're okay you end up giving up a coping mechanism.

 

[KillingPain267]

I'm sorry, it must be hard to live like that. I find alcohol helps a lot. Sounds like in order to convince people you're okay you end up giving up a coping mechanism.

It's not really a coping mechanism anymore. When I drink I don't wanna stop the next morning. So, slowly, suicide is the only option.

 

[TheOneFreeDude]

Do you plan on drinking until you OD, or are you referring to drinking until it eventually leads to death? Now there's a method I haven't thought about.

 

[no!tres.]

thats why i put a limit for change at a certain age, like a thresh-hold to ensure i dont rot slowly

 

[KillingPain267]

Do you plan on drinking until you OD, or are you referring to drinking until it eventually leads to death? Now there's a method I haven't thought about.

None. I have to find a quick method

 

[3rdworldsadness]

I want to run away in some unknown place then want to ctb . I'm 100% sure nobody will remember I will be free from abusive slavery . Hanging is the only option as I can't buy SN.