I never wanted to die. I just wanted my life quality to improve; I love my hobbies, I love how I can hyperfocus on things and lose myself in them. There are things about my neurodivergence that are terrifyingly brilliant and could not happen with a neurotypical brain.
Some things in my life appear to have been gotten better. And I hope they will get even better. I hate what my bullies did to me, I hate how my parents neglected me, I hate how unfair society is and how it treats disabled people. A lot of damage has been done due to that; not all of my suffering is due to how I have been born.
I love music, I love literature, I love beauty, I love art, human history, nature, mysticism, poetry, even if I cannot relate to it in the same way most people can. In my best times I was creative and have written loads of poetry, I can handle language skillfully.
Maybe I can at least publish some creative work before I die. That is my wish for my life
Some things in my life appear to have been gotten better. And I hope they will get even better. I hate what my bullies did to me, I hate how my parents neglected me, I hate how unfair society is and how it treats disabled people. A lot of damage has been done due to that; not all of my suffering is due to how I have been born.
I love music, I love literature, I love beauty, I love art, human history, nature, mysticism, poetry, even if I cannot relate to it in the same way most people can. In my best times I was creative and have written loads of poetry, I can handle language skillfully.
Maybe I can at least publish some creative work before I die. That is my wish for my life
