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fkyou

fkyou

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Oct 1, 2022
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I don't understand the people who keep living despite it being a shitty situation? for me it hurts me so much to see my life go the wrong direction?
 
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failureofahuman

Born failure, live failure, die failure
Nov 1, 2024
91
Hope is a cage
 
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donttalktome

Member
Jan 11, 2025
32
being the biggest coward ever in the universe. Deluding yourself like a schizophrenic that a miracle will come and save you instead of ending it. That's all.
 
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avalonisburning

Laugh again with me
May 12, 2024
153
A lot of people are already bought in on the innate value and beauty of life, regardless of circumstance. They're just down in the dumps and need specific marching orders to follow, and give form and meaning to what they already believe. That's where inspiring ideas like motivational speeches and existential philosophy comes in. They accept it because there's a part of them that already wanted to accept it. For the rest of us, it just rings hollow, condescending, and dismissive. That's why we're here.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,023
I really wish there's the option to just cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again with no risks of it going wrong and leading to way worse agony, I wish there's the choice to just permanently never exist ever again as it would bring me so much relief, I'd never choose to suffer in this existence, I never would have chose any of this. I'd never wish to be conscious of any of this at all rather I just want all to be gone and forgotten, I see existence as an abomination, I see it as the most cruel, futile burden to have to exist, non-existence truly is the only relief for me, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer for the sake of it in this reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age. I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, I wish there's the option to just choose to not exist as I suffer so much from being enslaved in this reality where suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what.
 
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Nadir

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Sep 11, 2024
30
Yup. First wave of "depression" I started to look at films that show humans overcoming immense odds and just think "why not just shoot yourself?" They'd just continue to suffer in hopeless situations endlessly and the actual solution was so fucking obvious to me. It was a radical perspective shift that felt like a secret I shouldn't know - as if id discovered the hidden truth being the human predicament. I know the movies are affirming the power and heroism of overcoming immense odds to live, but I don't see it that way, I see it as a losing move in a game where the only winning move is to stop playing. For some, the game can shift to become that, the pain you'd cause weighed against the pain you prevent for yourself making it a morally superior choice.
 
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cyclicism

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Jan 6, 2025
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Sometimes it's just luck of the draw. People have different innate thresholds on what they're able to endure/handle. Some may have a predisposition towards having suicidal tendencies, while others may never see the appeal of suicide, no matter how dire their situation is.
 
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divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
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Hope . Most people have hope things will get better regardless how shitty their life is. Us depressed people have faulty brain wiring that doesnt see hope
 
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L'absent

L'absent

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Aug 18, 2024
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Life is the wait for improvement.
 
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CogitoMori

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Oct 21, 2024
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Hope was the worst demon to leave Pandora's box, because she disguises herself as a savior before destroying you
 
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NegevChina

I've done the best I could
Sep 5, 2024
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I know I need to CTB, Ive got every thing I need to do it, yet still I hope I'll die in my sleep and wont wake up tomorrow. Things are bad, and about to get worse, much worse, my future is horrifying, and I still don't have the guts to do it. I guess I need to set a date within the next few weeks, and just do it. Its a peaceful inert gas hypoxia, one of the most peaceful and reliable methods.
 
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Kanoh

Student
Dec 31, 2024
105
Survival instinct and fear of unknown are powerful factors which forcefully keep many people alive against their will. Unfortunately, we are capable of withstanding incredible amounts of suffering before being pushed to end it. I suffer mentally everyday for years and my will to end it is still maturing. Fortunately I believe I am close.
 
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fkyou

fkyou

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Oct 1, 2022
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I know I need to CTB, Ive got every thing I need to do it, yet still I hope I'll die in my sleep and wont wake up tomorrow. Things are bad, and about to get worse, much worse, my future is horrifying, and I still don't have the guts to do it. I guess I need to set a date within the next few weeks, and just do it. Its a peaceful inert gas hypoxia, one of the most peaceful and reliable methods.
Man I'm the same.. im in the worse situation where my future is fked..everyday is shit because my mind bullies me yet I still say what if.. it's the worse mental state the worse situation ever..death is better than this bs.its either complete health or complete death.. I hate this fkery..I hate my self more for letting myself go threw this..im literally just torturing myself.. it's either I go to that fkn doctor or end this shit..ii think I'm stupid or something..or I got stupid because of phone use.i think I have to stop this addiction it's not letting me know what the right things to do
 
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shocksites

shocksites

this isn’t rage, it’s too specific
Jan 11, 2025
105
as much as i understand your sentiment, a lot of people's brains just don't work this way. we are wired to keep on surviving at all costs. it takes a lot to truly break through that.
 
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