i dont understand suicide notes

[awfullymorbid]

I don't mean to be ignorant whatsoever, of course I understand suicide notes in theory, but why?

What I don't understand is why people feel the need to write them. Me personally, I'm bad with human connections. I feel as if I'm not really emotionally connected to most people. I've never been in a relationship, I haven't had that many meaningful friendships, my most important developing years were spent without my family and then when I came back all I got was mental abuse and neglect, which means my connection with my parents isn't that great.
So yes, maybe it's a me problem, and maybe moment right before I ctb ill actually start to feel the need to write these letters, but as of right now, it's really nothing I necessarily care about and wonder if this is relatable in any way.

I also feel like a lot of people already know my intentions with this life. I fear that when I get the chance to speak I speak way more than I should've and people generally know that I don't enjoy life, even so no one has ever checked up on me, which I guess means they don't believe my abilities to ctb? (Unfortunately I don't know if I believe my abilities either..)

Idk I feel like leaving a note seems too obnoxious in my case, if I were to leave one id probably leave it in my room for someone to find it, not send one directly to the targeted person.

 

[SuicidalCurryBoy]

Some people want the world to know they existed... It's not that complicated.

You might not want it. Others do.

 

[Untoten_]

Some people want the world to know they existed... It's not that complicated.

You might not want it. Others do.

When I did it with mine, I didn't write anything, I did prepare though.

I think it depends on the people that said person has, me, I had/have nobody, so I had nobody to write to.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

Whether to write or not is entirely up to the person. Me personally I'd want to leave something behind, even just to leave a mark or something, even for myself. But it's understandable to not want to write anything as well, each situation and each person is different and can wish for different things, or change their minds about virtually anything at anytime too.

 

[Al1ce]

I understand you. I don't feel like leaving a suicide note either. It all depends on personal preferences and trust in people. for example, I wouldn't do this because I have nothing to say to people who could potentially find her, I don't want to explain anything to them

 

[ih34rty0u]

same here. i say what i think all the time and i won't feel the need to say anything else before i die. also, if they dont care while im alive, why would they care when im dead? it would feel so embarrassing to even try to write a note.

 

[Cauliflour]

I'm so secretive that if I died here and now without writing a note: it's gonna be a pain in the ass for my loved ones to figure out what the fuck was wrong with me and they'll still get it wrong! That's when I think suicide notes are useful: when you don't want idiot podcasters trying to weave a story about your existence because you were too good at looking sane.

 

[pelicanportal]

The best and final way to try to make it clear to any loved ones that it isn't their fault. Any time they want to blame themselves and think about ending their own time, I hope they can bring themselves to look at the note and know I never blamed them and they shouldn't either. It isn't for me so much as it is for them.

 

[BullsDon'tFly]

In this thread OP explains well why it is nice to leave something behind, not for you but to make it easier for people that will survive you. In mine I just want to tell people that I appreciate their friendship and love, how to handle post mortem scenarios. Of course it's also a little about me, but I'm doing it for them mostly.