Venting I don't see the point in living anymore

[Red Moon]

It's just that I can't keep going on like this the way things are currently. I'm going to have to make changes which is hard for me because of autism or ctb from this world, I'm going towards the latter. I'm not living and it's just suffering being here and I don't give a damn what people think. I don't think there's much left for me here.

I'm stuck because I can't ctb easily, this existence is just pain and suffering but I'm going to have to do something about it sooner or later.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand that it's so dreadful suffering in this existence, I really wish that suicide isn't so unnecessarily difficult, it's so cruel to me how one cannot just easily die in peace. But anyway best wishes.