Venting I don't really want to die but it's the only way to end my suffering.

[Mary Janex]

I wish so much I could just be happy and live a normal life, and that I didn't suffer from mental disorders that totally destroy it. I am a burden to everyone including myself in someway. It can never get better and unfortunately death is the only way out. I am afraid. I wish there was another solution, but there isn't one. I have to do it because I just want it to stop and dont want to suffer anymore.

 

[flutebloom]

I feel the same way. I don't really want to die but I have no choice. It's the only way I can escape this suffering that I've essentially caused myself by being such a fuck up.

 

[Hollowman]

Same here. I tried to fight it for three and half decades. I'm done.

 

[sanction]

Same here. I tried to fight it for three and half decades. I'm done.

Wow, that is long timeframe. What kept you going in previous years??

For me, been suicidal almost 8 years. Lost count how many times I thought of suicide so far. Definitely many many thousands of times. It's truly mental torture

Also wish there was a better way, and not have to be like this. Truly sucks

 

[Hollowman]

Wow, that is long timeframe. What kept you going in previous years??

For me, been suicidal almost 8 years. Lost count how many times I thought of suicide so far. Definitely many many thousands of times. It's truly mental torture

Also wish there was a better way, and not have to be like this. Truly sucks

My mom kept me going. When she dies I'm out of here. If I can last that long.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you have to suffer, it's just so dreadful to me how there's all this suffering and cruelty in this torturous existence, it sounds like you've suffered a lot, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[hereornot]

For me too.