Lou_Charthethird
A lifeless husk
- Dec 19, 2025
- 20
i physically cannot feel anything at all. Any push or pull to certain interests or disinterests, even the ones ive had before this happened. I cant feel fear or urges or anxiety or complex depression, i cant feel hope or comfort or assurance or confidence or pure happiness . I wouldn't even know what they would feel like, i have been fully sapped of any emotion. This came during my formative years, all of highschool, i spent it like this. I couldnt form a personality or a understanding of myself during the years i needed to, instead i did the opposite. Im now supposed to go to college but in order to do it, i need to know what I want. And i have no clue what that is. So im stuck like this for whats been over 4 years now, so removed from any form of sentimentality and empathy, and now im going to make decisions for myself that im incapable of truly enjoying. I dont know how to fix this, i dont even know what this is, and i just want to die. I know that if i were to "fix" this, i would be a incredibly depressed, thats why my body is doing this, to hide myself from myself. But there is no right answer, this isnt helping, and i cant kill myself because i dont know how. The night night method is so confusing to pull off and i cant find any more accessible method. Im stuck in this limbo and its ruined any chance i couldve had with determining what to do with my life.
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