Venting I dont know if its worth trying anymore

[LeonIsDead]

Honestly i wish i could just ctb as soon as possible but i know i cant. My friends and family would be so sad and all. Which makes me feel even worse about my depression and suicidal thoughts bc i know they care about me but i still cant stop thinking about how life is just

Pointless

I feel numb every day and i can feel the pain in my chest and yet i cant do anything about it bc i dont care ab myself enough to keep trying. Im still alive just bc of others, i dont care what happens to me. I might just kill myself soon or run away somewhere far to start fresh i dint know.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand that it really can be so tiring feeling trapped here when you just wish to leave but anyway I wish you the best, existing certainly can be so dreadful.