i dont know if i can do "this" for the rest of my life

[campo d'erba]

i go to school im not happy
i have break off school im not happy

its not like i dont have things i can do or friends or am actively miserable (thank fucking god for pills)

i cut myself here and there and watch shows i like and play games i like but i get tired of it

im 21 staring down the barrel of the rest of my life

what do i do






looking at this situation objectively made me kinda laugh
its impressive how im managing to steal a loss out of the claws of victory -- im not actively suicidal, my situation is actually decent now, i have a few actual people around me i like
maybe i need to try to take life less seriously and do peaceful creative activities? (like writing posts on the internet)

 

[timf]

The transition from being a child . student to directing your own adult life can be like moving to a different planet. Since it is unknown it can seem overwhelming if it is in the future. Looking back it seems inconsequential. It is sad that family and school do not do very much to help people recognize how difficult this transition can be and how to manage it.