Venting I don’t fucking get it

[wealllovesodium]

I don't understand why I can't do things right, I'm not trying to hurt people or do bad things. I really fucking don't understand it. I honestly feel like I'm not living like myself. I feel like a copy of a copy of something I once was. I'm done with it all. All ever do is upset people and fail them.

If you're reading this. I'm sorry for what happened and I admit it's wrong I felt that way, even if it was a confusing feeling. You know I love you over anything. You know who this for.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

I don't understand why I can't do things right, I'm not trying to hurt people or do bad things. I really fucking don't understand it. I honestly feel like I'm not living like myself. I feel like a copy of a copy of something I once was. I'm done with it all. All ever do is upset people and fail them.

If you're reading this. I'm sorry for what happened and I admit it's wrong I felt that way, even if it was a confusing feeling. You know I love you over anything. You know who this for.

This is not for me, specifically, but I can say that the feeling of letting down and hurting other people without intent is something I can relate to. I often lash out when I'm under stress or anxious, and it does not discriminate between friend and foe. It's a natural response to physically and mentally discharge that energy, and often, whoever is at our sights will get the treatment.

It's human to do mistakes, it's normal. We're organic, and we are always failing and upsetting. What we can do is accept our flaws and others', and hope others can do the same to us.

I, for one, do not blame you if you did wrong things. Mama bear would never get mad at you, all she wants is to make you feel good about yourself, and sometimes we got to release pent up energy. It's alright honey, come here...*hugs*