I don't deserve to live if I can't work, I guess.

[neurotoxic]

Before anyone says it, I know plenty have it worse. I know plenty don't have the opportunity to work. But for fucks sake, I can't function. I had a breakdown. I take my meds, I can't get therapy more than once a month, I'm doing everything I'm supposed to and I believe it helps but I have PTSD and major depressive disorder. What the fuck am I supposed to do as a mental health worker, trying to work up the courage to kill myself in the morning to avoid having to go to work, and then I'm just supposed to get there and shove it all down for eight hours? I asked for leave. I was denied. I got a week thanks to a doctors note. I went back. I got seriously injured by a patient, because I weigh just over 100lbs now and that's less than a lot patients I work with. There's no feasible way for me, ethically, to work in my field, in my mental state. And no way for me to handle full time work. but anything less than full time I can't afford. I start a new job soon. I don't plan on starting it. fuck this.

 

[Satori Komeiji]

Others having it worse certainly doesn't invalidate your own struggles. I understand the struggle. If I work more than 3 days a week I gradually become more impatient and irritable until I end up quitting. I hope you find a job that treats you better <3

 

[eupdplishlp]

Before anyone says it, I know plenty have it worse. I know plenty don't have the opportunity to work. But for fucks sake, I can't function. I had a breakdown. I take my meds, I can't get therapy more than once a month, I'm doing everything I'm supposed to and I believe it helps but I have PTSD and major depressive disorder. What the fuck am I supposed to do as a mental health worker, trying to work up the courage to kill myself in the morning to avoid having to go to work, and then I'm just supposed to get there and shove it all down for eight hours? I asked for leave. I was denied. I got a week thanks to a doctors note. I went back. I got seriously injured by a patient, because I weigh just over 100lbs now and that's less than a lot patients I work with. There's no feasible way for me, ethically, to work in my field, in my mental state. And no way for me to handle full time work. but anything less than full time I can't afford. I start a new job soon. I don't plan on starting it. fuck this.

surley they can give you 3 months leave? I had 3 months leave I know it wasnt' working as mental health worker but come on. You're a priority here. if anyone needs help and support it's definatley someone whos devoted their valuable time and hard work to others. I've had many menal health workers I can see when they are tired. where are you from if you don't mind me asking as I know the rules for some with fit/sicknotes

 

[SadBumblebee]

Some people need different work schedules to others. I know the job market is really hard right now, but it could be an idea to float around until you find something solid. You're definitely worth something, even if you aren't working rn.

 

[leot83]

Before anyone says it, I know plenty have it worse. I know plenty don't have the opportunity to work. But for fucks sake, I can't function. I had a breakdown. I take my meds, I can't get therapy more than once a month, I'm doing everything I'm supposed to and I believe it helps but I have PTSD and major depressive disorder. What the fuck am I supposed to do as a mental health worker, trying to work up the courage to kill myself in the morning to avoid having to go to work, and then I'm just supposed to get there and shove it all down for eight hours? I asked for leave. I was denied. I got a week thanks to a doctors note. I went back. I got seriously injured by a patient, because I weigh just over 100lbs now and that's less than a lot patients I work with. There's no feasible way for me, ethically, to work in my field, in my mental state. And no way for me to handle full time work. but anything less than full time I can't afford. I start a new job soon. I don't plan on starting it. fuck this.

Are you in the uk by any chance?