Venting I don't care anymore

[Nothing87]

I don't care if I see someone who is happy and successful in their life

I don't care if I see someone who are in a relationship and have a happy and loving family

I don't care what any negative shit people says to me

I don't care if I am not attractive

I just have one goal in life, and it is to leave this world peacefully, I've been hoping to find a job just to have money to buy all the things I will need to CTB. Fuck those people who ruined my life.

 

[bFre3]

I agree...

I also feel like I don't bother about things anymore. Or maybe even can't. But then it's also partially untrue because I do care, they're the things that drove me into this state in the first place?

It just becomes a whirling mess at the end. At one point it just gets too messy and unrepairable.

I have the same goal as you. Hope you find peace.

 

[Nothing87]

I agree...

I also feel like I don't bother about things anymore. Or maybe even can't. But then it's also partially untrue because I do care, they're the things that drove me into this state in the first place?

It just becomes a whirling mess at the end. At one point it just gets too messy and unrepairable.

I have the same goal as you. Hope you find peace.

There are parts of me that do care, it is when I help people who are in needs and it is the only thing that is keeping me sane. Also wishing you peace and freedom from this miserable life.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Nor should you care. None of us should. Our parents obviously didn't care when they haphazardly decided to have children. They all thought they could just pop out kids and wing it. None consideration whatsoever for the pure suffering that existence is. The most stupid and selfish act any human could commit.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find freedom from all the suffering, best wishes.

 

[ADBoy777]

Hits hard. I hope you will get the stuff and resources you need to ctb as soon as possible.
Best wishes

 

[Fuko1]

I very much agree with your thought. I hope you can relieve and find your way.