I studied as hard as I can only to be cheated out of the reward I was entitled to for it, it was all in vain. So I'm a graduate of uc berkeley, and studied hard for 4 years , make it 8 considering high school. And I already went theough enough with covid. And what did god if he exisrs give us. He allowed ai to exist when we already suffered enough, moving the freaking goalposts.
And grad school was hellish for me and so is this job search when ai is taking over. It feels like the modern dating market as incels put it but so much worse. They were right all along with the black pilled just not in the way youd ezpect in that the bad issues there seeped into the job search and unlike dating(which i wont do because of antinatalism), you cant avoid this.
I have dyspraxia and adhd and would have been held back, and you know what i should have done that. Hell i dare say eugenics would have prevented me from suffering. In fact i dare say its a big source of my self loathing. Furthermore keeping this body healthy is almost impossible
Not only has ai made the job market conpletely . But i never even loved the stuff i was forced into by my parents, who pretend like everything is fine despite how blatantly im not. Furthwrmore everyone i cared about vack during my terrible time at berkeley is suffering because of ai taking over. And they're encouraging me to get a job in it to "be a producitve member of society", when society deserves no such thing. I'm sick of being a fucking warrior , I just want an easy stress free life.
You know what, my struggles are completely and utterly meaningless. I could care less that i accomplished so much despite my condition. If it means that I dont have to use ai or support it in any kind of hob. I want to catch the bus. With how long I've had executive dysfunction and self loathing. i'm pretty sure its genetic. And you know what from my point of view if suffering isnt linear, that just tells me that life isnt worth living anyway. So does the fact that our biology just makes being unhappy the default.
Hell another one of my own conditions even makes wording this without turning into a word vomit almost impossible and theres a bunch of other things that i just missed here/
I just want to ctb so that i and my family wont have to suffer.
And grad school was hellish for me and so is this job search when ai is taking over. It feels like the modern dating market as incels put it but so much worse. They were right all along with the black pilled just not in the way youd ezpect in that the bad issues there seeped into the job search and unlike dating(which i wont do because of antinatalism), you cant avoid this.
I have dyspraxia and adhd and would have been held back, and you know what i should have done that. Hell i dare say eugenics would have prevented me from suffering. In fact i dare say its a big source of my self loathing. Furthermore keeping this body healthy is almost impossible
Not only has ai made the job market conpletely . But i never even loved the stuff i was forced into by my parents, who pretend like everything is fine despite how blatantly im not. Furthwrmore everyone i cared about vack during my terrible time at berkeley is suffering because of ai taking over. And they're encouraging me to get a job in it to "be a producitve member of society", when society deserves no such thing. I'm sick of being a fucking warrior , I just want an easy stress free life.
You know what, my struggles are completely and utterly meaningless. I could care less that i accomplished so much despite my condition. If it means that I dont have to use ai or support it in any kind of hob. I want to catch the bus. With how long I've had executive dysfunction and self loathing. i'm pretty sure its genetic. And you know what from my point of view if suffering isnt linear, that just tells me that life isnt worth living anyway. So does the fact that our biology just makes being unhappy the default.
Hell another one of my own conditions even makes wording this without turning into a word vomit almost impossible and theres a bunch of other things that i just missed here/
I just want to ctb so that i and my family wont have to suffer.
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