restingplace
Emo corpse
- Mar 7, 2024
- 51
I hate myself so much, my ed is getting worse, as is self harm and it my depression doesn't seem to be getting any better either. Today itself is a really hard day, I haven't really talked about this anywhere especially not anywhere online but I lost someone I loved on this day a few years back and I haven't coped well with it at all, the pain still feels just as bad and I can't continue to live with it, the pain is constant. I also hurt my best friends and girlfriend because of my ctb attempt, my best friends found me and my girlfriend got told the details a day after. They're all hurting so much and traumatised because of me, that further proves why I should just do it again but this time with SN or something. I will never forgive myself for what I did to the people I love most, I'm not sure if they'll see this, I'm hoping not because I promised them I'd leave sasu. It hurts being on here sometimes because it helps me communicate my thoughts but I don't want to encourage others.
i honestly believe it'll be a matter of time before i try again, i have extremely strong chemicals in the house so i guess we'll see how that goes
i honestly believe it'll be a matter of time before i try again, i have extremely strong chemicals in the house so i guess we'll see how that goes