i cut for attention

[keiangel1]

relapsed again but ngl i love seeing the blood and i think that shallow cuts where it just bleeds for a few minutes and then stops is so beautiful
the scars heal completely within a month or two and i get a free canvas
i wish people cared enough to actually notice them without me having to "accidentally" slash flash them
i wish someone would notice why i always wear long sleeves in 30°c weather
cause i can't NOT wear long sleeves cause then i'll look attention seeking
which i am
but i don't want them to know that
it fucks with the nonchalant image i'm trying to keep

 

[Deepdense]

Why do you want attention?

 

[iwkmsssb]

self harming really is a cry for help, and sometimes you desperately want someone to notice so they know how much pain you're in and how serious it's become. i've had so many urges to flash my scars to those who hurt me, because their actions have led me to that point. but i know that's an insane thing to do so i didn't do it. at least i still have some rationality left.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Isn't it possible that they notice but don't say anything? Maybe it's awkward for them & they don't want to bring it up and make you feel uncomfortable. What would you like them to say to you?

 

[keiangel1]

Why do you want attention?

i feel useless and i want someone to need me

Isn't it possible that they notice but don't say anything? Maybe it's awkward for them & they don't want to bring it up and make you feel uncomfortable. What would you like them to say to you?

anything literally anything even just an "are you okay" would help

 

[burninghill]

I have self-harmed for attention for 6 years and it has gotten me nowhere. I would wear my sleeves rolled up covered in cigarette burns and fat-deep cuts.

I agree with the other commenter who says that people might find it awkward and the fear of making you uncomfortable might be a factor in why it seems like people don't notice, but honestly it's not a very good excuse.
I don't think your mental health is the responsibility of those around you in its entirety, and maybe I'm biased, but I do find the fear of discomfort to be a very bad reason for not checking in on someone you care about.

What's the worst that could happen? You make your friend uncomfortable, but at least they know you care about them.

For me, this lack of attention has spiralled into more damaging and permanent forms of self-harm, which is sort of what happens when one learns to believe that their suffering isn't apparent enough to be worth concern.

 

[Deepdense]

i feel useless and i want someone to need me

If you want someone to need you, you need to be someone worth needing. You can't just cut yourself apart because you feel useless. Be a useful person and people will need you. It's going to take a lot of work, but it will be worth it.

 

[idfwlnh]

relapsed again but ngl i love seeing the blood and i think that shallow cuts where it just bleeds for a few minutes and then stops is so beautiful
the scars heal completely within a month or two and i get a free canvas

When I was still doing so, I also feel these cuts were rly beautiful, though I absolutely hate to have other ppl know abt it. Seeking attention might lead to more ppl judging than actually have someone care abt my mental problem

 

[bl33ding_heart]

Even if you're only self harming for attention, you are still just as sick as someone that doesn't want attention. I'm so sorry life has led you to such a brutal way to cope. You don't deserve to suffer, and you deserve love and care as any other human does. Humans are very social creatures, attention and socialisation is a basic human need and lack of it can seriously mess people up. I pray for you to get better and for your pain to ease.

 

[RottenSoul]

You don't need to feel guilty about self-harming to get attention. I have also done it but in a different way. I can't speak for everyone but a lot of us who self harm do it so someone might help us, like we cry for help, sometimes we do it subconsciously without realizing it. One time that i saw two people who i considered to have much worse personalities and looks than me had both chances with girls and i felt like a piece of garbage, i would tell myself that i might be lonely but there are other people like me, with one of them we had and we still have similar mental health issues and we would talk together about them. After i heard about what was going on and the chances they both had i felt like the worst of the worst, i hated myself so much at that moment that i couldn't believe was possible, i wanted to torture and kill myself so much. We were at university when this happened, my university has this huge forest around it, i went there hid and started punching a tree, i wanted to hurt myself so much because of what a piece of garbage i felt i was, i would hit the tree and my hand would bleed but i still wasn't satisfied, i then started hitting my thigh with all my force i would scream but i still wasn't satisfied, my hand ended up full of blood and my thigh bruised to the point my mom noticed after some days. The reason i am saying this is because while i was doing this i released that deep inside i hoped that someone would see me, that someone would hear and ask what's wrong, see how much i suffer and hate myself for real and ask me about it. Nobody showed up, i was deep in the woods and uni didn't have a lot of people at the time so i just went back. One of my "friends" saw the blood in my hands but didn't address it even though i knew he saw it, we just talked about stuff in general.

 

[distantutopia]

This may sound like you're attention seeking for you but I get it. Attention seeking is also a cry for help in a way. Your pain is valid, even if you're just seeking for some attention.

Hope all the best for u

 

[Cauliflour]

It's funny how the suicide forum of all places has the nicest people when someone says they self harm for attention. If you said this on a site like TikTok or Instagram then you'd be crucified.

relapsed again but ngl i love seeing the blood and i think that shallow cuts where it just bleeds for a few minutes and then stops is so beautiful

I think the fascination with blood like that is because usually it's inside of you so you don't see it, so seeing this forbidden liquid ooze out of your own doing has some mental thing to it that causes intrigue, especially if the motive for that doing is some messy mental health stuff: it's like seeing your suffering visualised infront of you!