Venting I cut again

[ChaoticMind]

It happened again..cutting, before i thought i was getting better..i had stopped for 10 years, and then it all when to shit..my own father caused the urge to become overwhelming. All that progress lost over one stupid man and a dissociated episode. And the just like that i started up again and again and again. It my fault it always is after all..im weak. Its like i was simply waiting for an excuse to pick up that blade. Perhaps thats true..i think i go back to it because its the only thing i can control, i think thats true too. And maybe thats the reason i keep having the urge to do it.
I know one day it will be the end of me..but thats my choice to make after all.