Venting I cant wait any longer

[peewee]

my planned ctb via sn date is the 14th because by then i will have been taking PPI's for a week. but im so sad i just want it to be over now. i will try and hold on until the 14th. i will post a goodbye thread....i just hope it works, it has to work. i also hope its peaceful as it can be. i just need to be gone, im tired of hurt and heart break

 

[Gabriel1987]

I hope everything goes well for you, that it's quick and painless. I too would really like to die as soon as possible, but I can't find 99% sodium nitrite in France.

 

[Claymore7274]

I'm also gonna try again the 14th!!! I wish you the best

 

[peewee]

I'm also gonna try again the 14th!!! I wish you the best

oh wow, what a coincidence - did you try with sn before? x sorry your at this point too

 

[Claymore7274]

oh wow, what a coincidence - did you try with sn before? x sorry your at this point too

i wish i had SN, no i'm gonna go at it with partial changing my setup and see if it works, i really don't want to fully suspend myself, it hurts with partial already

 

[peewee]

i wish i had SN, no i'm gonna go at it with partial changing my setup and see if it works, i really don't want to fully suspend myself, it hurts with partial already

im sorry to hear that , im sorry your so desperate , i get it , i hope you find peace whatever it means xx

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find freedom from suffering, I wish you the best.

 

[disabledaccount0452]

Whatever will happen on the 14th, I truly wish for you to be finally happy and free from your worries. It has been a pleasure seeing you around the last couple of weeks, and you always seemed like a really nice person who just got betrayed by life. I hope you find your happy place, hun <3 <3

 

[peewee]

Whatever will happen on the 14th, I truly wish for you to be finally happy and free from your worries. It has been a pleasure seeing you around the last couple of weeks, and you always seemed like a really nice person who just got betrayed by life. I hope you find your happy place, hun <3 <3

thank you chemi i feel the same about you :) im so sorry for your awful experiences too x

 

[dalemar]

I think OP might succeeded.

 

[peewee]

hey frens....i did not succeed. i had a burst of hope and have been trying to recover - however ive swung back....i want to try again, but not sure...i will keep updated...i think if i do attempt i will just post a goodbye thread a little before i take sn....lots of love to you all

 

[GutsOverFear]

my planned ctb via sn date is the 14th because by then i will have been taking PPI's for a week. but im so sad i just want it to be over now. i will try and hold on until the 14th. i will post a goodbye thread....i just hope it works, it has to work. i also hope its peaceful as it can be. i just need to be gone, im tired of hurt and heart break

I feel the same way