i can’t stop thinking about the moments after

[bunintherug]

i keep telling myself "it'll be lights out, it won't matter, it won't be your problem" but i keep picturing my roommates, and my cats. they'd find me eventually. i think. or maybe they'd call my partner to check on me. maybe my cats would sniff me. i can't stop thinking about it all. i don't want to think about it.

 

[Circles]

If you have your own room and intend to ctb there then you could put a sheet or something attached/taped/nailed to the ceiling in front of the door covering the scene and put a sign on it warning to your roommates to call the authorities so they don't have to be traumatized for finding your body. Depending on your method you could also put a sheet or blanket over your body before you ctb if you don't want your cats to find you in that state.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Is a hotel an option? Personally in that circumstance, I'd try to go somewhere at least people I knew wouldn't find me. You'd hope the staff would be trained too- to not enter if a sign was up to call the authorities.