Venting I can’t remember when I last felt joy.

[DrinkingInHell]

I feel happy in fleeting moments, like when eating a food I like or seeing something I enjoy, but it's not true happiness-that's best I could explain it. This form of happiness is more so just how I feel when distracted from the reality of things; better. It pains me though trying to think of when I'd last *really* felt happy.

I came to think of this today because very soon I'm starting something I've been wanting to do for a very long time. I won't get into details, the main point is that I should be happy. This is something I've wanted for years, and something I'm lucky to get, yet I only feel a tiny bit of excitement under all of the looming despair depression has not yet ceased to bring lol. I wish I could just smile and meant it. But I have no clue what I would even need to bring that joy back.

Anyways, thanks for reading. I know this post is very "no shit Sherlock"-esque but still I wanted it off my mind

 

[zixd]

hope y'll find yr joy at life , it must be a true happiness for you to enjoy much longer , life is unexpected ...

 

[bankai]

None of that is happiness.eating food?that's just pleasure.

But to be blunt I think the ability to be happy for a lot of us is blunted.I'm talking about our actual body's ability to create the feeling of happiness.hormones or whatever

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

Same situation here. I can feel the absence of negative emotions, which can be optimistically interpreted as something akin to pleasure or peace depending on the situation, but it's not joy. I no longer am capable of experiencing joy.