I tried before almost a year ago, kinda failed i dont have a high enough spot in my place to hang my fans actually kinda weak? like it literally bent when i put a rope over it then i tried from the closet rod it was strong enough but not high enough i could only be suffocated. Then, im thinking of jumping seems the easiest yeah?, its kinda scary like when im in the air or the moment before i die.. my ideal death is drowning but ill have to go to a beach, river or dam at night when no one is around.
Anyways, I don't think I'll die this year though for sure in 2-3 years. I have a trip planned with my friend and all that seems a good year.
I just don't think I can do life like, I think you need 3 things for life; luck, ambition and talent. I have only luck, I swear its such a luck ive lived so long I have no will, no talent but I was lucky enough to be born somewhere where my mom will do alot for me, she literally got me a house and stuff its good yeah, virtually its a luck someone so stupid and talentless like me even has friends, of course im greatful but its all luck I believe, maybe to compensate for the fact I dint get the other two. However, even though on paper I don't have a reason to die... its just I don't have one to live for. Just life's alot of effort, sadly im a coward and cant do it.
Was a little vent, but can someone recommend me better methods.
Anyways, I don't think I'll die this year though for sure in 2-3 years. I have a trip planned with my friend and all that seems a good year.
I just don't think I can do life like, I think you need 3 things for life; luck, ambition and talent. I have only luck, I swear its such a luck ive lived so long I have no will, no talent but I was lucky enough to be born somewhere where my mom will do alot for me, she literally got me a house and stuff its good yeah, virtually its a luck someone so stupid and talentless like me even has friends, of course im greatful but its all luck I believe, maybe to compensate for the fact I dint get the other two. However, even though on paper I don't have a reason to die... its just I don't have one to live for. Just life's alot of effort, sadly im a coward and cant do it.
Was a little vent, but can someone recommend me better methods.
