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fedup1982

Wizard
Jul 17, 2025
616
I feel like bringing a consciousness into this world is a form of harm. Bringing a consciousness into this world opens it up to suffering that otherwise it wouldn't.

Im angry. Angry that BOTH my parents decided to bring me into this world. Angry that they're either unwilling or unable to help me now. Im Angry that society protects life at almost any cost. Actually, I'm furious. "At least you're alive" Fuck that shit man you can keep it
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,352
My proudest achievement is keeping my genes out of the cesspool.
 
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GhostInTheMachine

Safeguard
Nov 5, 2023
529
I hate my parents for having me, but I'm glad I'm not forcing another to live on my behalf.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,185
I really understand, I feel the same, I find it the most terrible, dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this futile, deeply undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake, existence really is the problem and if I never existed it would had saved me from so much suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to cease existing anyway, existing truly is so futile, so torturous, I'd just never wish for any of this.
 
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Ligottian

Enlightened
Dec 19, 2021
1,279
My proudest achievement is keeping my genes out of the cesspool.
I gave you a thumbs up but I wish I could have given more. I feel exactly as you do.
 
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MyShadow

MyShadow

Left the forum to pursue recovery
Aug 27, 2025
475
I have a son and he is an exceptional man. Coincidentally, he's studying psychology because he wants to create a program for affordable mental health care for ordinary people like us.

Leaving him behind after I CTB will be the biggest regret I have, and I will have no way to let him know why I exited or why.
 
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strawberry931

Member
Aug 23, 2025
76
Some say Earth is just a school. It's a place where spirits go to experience things and learn from those experiences. In the spirit dimension there is no pain and suffering. You chose to come here to learn and make your spirit stronger.

Nobody knows for sure though.
 
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sorrowfullyliving

Always worried
Sep 2, 2025
57
I personally feel like people who brought life into existence doesn't care about the about how that life will experience suffering. Most, if not all of them just want someone to take care of them when they retire, someone who's going to be their retirement plan. The rest are probably pressured to have children by their parents
 
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PixelAngel

PixelAngel

The Great Glowing Exit Sign
Sep 1, 2025
82
I'm forever child free. I didn't ask to be born. Why would I bring a child into a world I can't even find compassion for myself in? What could I tell them about how to find their happiness on zero experience finding my own? For too many people, I think it's entirely self interest and fear that drives them to have kids, rather than any interest in guiding a young human who is part of them. Too many certainly don't give a crap about the quality of the world they're leaving their kids in, or about working together not to destroy it, so I really feel like they don't actually have a kid's best interest in mind even if they say they do.
 
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Off_Switch

Experienced
Aug 15, 2025
251
Not only does society protect lives, it makes sure that the lives of horrible people are good. I mean look at the disgusting criminal that lives in the White House right now. It's about to get really, REALLY ugly. I hope to be dead before this happens. It's been about 100 years since the Great Depression. Another one is due. We may not be waiting in line for stale bread like they did back then, but it's definitely going to be insufferable for most.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,352
Some say Earth is just a school. It's a place where spirits go to experience things and learn from those experiences. In the spirit dimension there is no pain and suffering. You chose to come here to learn and make your spirit stronger.

Nobody knows for sure though.
I would never have chose to come here. People who believe that are the real crazies.
 
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dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
927
I have a son and he is an exceptional man. Coincidentally, he's studying psychology because he wants to create a program for affordable mental health care for ordinary people like us.

Leaving him behind after I CTB will be the biggest regret I have, and I will have no way to let him know why I exited or why.
Why can't you leave him a note?
 
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badatparties

badatparties

Elementalist
Mar 16, 2025
814
Yeah, it's strange. I don't know how others don't see that something is seriously wrong down here. I would never invite someone i love here.
 
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strawberry931

Member
Aug 23, 2025
76
I would never have chose to come here. People who believe that are the real crazies.
As a spirit who wanted to experience both the good and the bad. Learn and grow from the struggles.
 
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badatparties

Elementalist
Mar 16, 2025
814
I would never have chose to come here. People who believe that are the real crazies.
I agree with you so i won't argue, but let's do a thought experiment for funsies.

What if in the spiritual world, the decision to come to earth doesn't hold as much weight. From that vantage point, you know it will be over soon and you will be back to absolute peace and love. You know that everything that happened in the physical world will hold zero weight once you're back.

In that case, it makes sense to experience what being a imperfect physical being would be like. BTW i don't believe in any of that crap, i just like to think over various scenarios.
 
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strawberry931

Member
Aug 23, 2025
76
I would never have chose to come here. People who believe that are the real crazies.
Well maybe we don't have a choice. Maybe it's a mandatory learning experience that we all have to go though, maybe even multiple times depending on how you do in this world.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,352
Well maybe we don't have a choice. Maybe it's a mandatory learning experience that we all have to go though, maybe even multiple times depending on how you do in this world.
More than likely souls don't exist and humanity is a random mistake.
 
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