Venting I cant go on like this

[Reika179]

Im tired. Im tired of waking up every morning with this same brain and same situation I cant escape from. Its a cycle. Wake up, do some 'responsibilities' I didn't even ask for, and suffer from this brain that only knows how to torment me.

Even when I live like this, people will always try and convince me to stay alive. Thats not morals, thats selfishness. Morals are manmade, theres no such things as right or wrong in this world. They want me alive because it benefits them. It makes them feel better.

I get that people do that because of instinct. In the end of the day, we're all humans and we hate the emotion of 'fear'. But I can't keep excusing them just because of that reason. Why do they get to have what they want in cost of me suffering in this life?

I didnt ask to be born. Why cant I have the privilege of chosing how I want MY OWN life to end?

 

[Eazy]

I hope you find some resolution and please take care of yourself in the meanwhile, whatever you decide to do

 

[itsgone2]

I didnt ask to be born. Why cant I have the privilege of chosing how I want MY OWN life to end?

Agree. I don't see an out. We should be allowed to choose

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, all I want is to be free from this torturous, cruel existence, forcing people to suffer in this existence that never should had been imposed in the first place is such horrific extreme cruelty to me, it's just so terrible how we exist in this reality where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what and I really understand finding it torture to exist, I hope you find peace.

 

[annointed_towers]

I've found that it's not so much that they want to use me. Extract labor or something, some utility. It's just.. they have not been in a position to comprehend such hopelessness, despair and desperation. It does not enter their consciousness. They "can't even imagine," quite literally. So they repeat what they've heard because it gives them hope. The same platitudes. They do not want to live in a world without hope. They cling to it. But it can be taken from you, no matter how hard you cling. Everything can be taken from you. Even things you can't hold. Peace. Hope.

 

[tomame]

it disgusts me when people consider suicide selfish.
if anything it's the most self conscious thing ever

i literally don't feel good enough to be here .. i'm in an immense amount of suffering i can't overcome and life has brought to a hopeless state that has brought me to want to give up

where do i have time to consider your feelings about my life or situation? if i could .. i probably wouldn't want to off myself


but unfortunately i don't see a better alternative