I cant get rid of suicidal thoughts

[ir0noxygen]

Everything in my life is going well, but i still feel like im in pieces. My boyfriend doesnt understand me, neither do my parents, so i dont even mention it anymore. Im so upset constantly, and sometimes cant handle my anger, and i hurt either people i love or myself. I just want these thoughts to go away. Im so scared of killing myself, but im just so frustrated. It feels like im ungrateful.
How are you dealing with suicidal thoughts? Id be grateful for any stories and suggestions.

 

[divinemistress87]

I've never been able to deal with them but some people have luck with psychadelic therapy and tms