Venting I cannot do this

[Miku _fanboy101]

I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die fuck fuckk I wanna die do fucking badly I can't do this anymore fuck fuck fuckkk. Fuck. I wanna die. I wanna tie a rope around my neck and feel it take my breath away. I can't live anymore it's too painful. I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this. I wanna die I really do. Fuck fuck why can't I die already? It's useless in my mind. I need to die. I hate myself. I really do hate myself.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand that it's dreadful and torturous feeling so trapped in this existence so I hope that you eventually find freedom from your suffering.

 

[Miku _fanboy101]

I do understand that it's dreadful and torturous feeling so trapped in this existence so I hope that you eventually find freedom from your suffering.

Thank you for your kind words

 

[walkingdead2023]

I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die fuck fuckk I wanna die do fucking badly I can't do this anymore fuck fuck fuckkk. Fuck. I wanna die. I wanna tie a rope around my neck and feel it take my breath away. I can't live anymore it's too painful. I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this. I wanna die I really do. Fuck fuck why can't I die already? It's useless in my mind. I need to die. I hate myself. I really do hate myself.

Please call 911 you are going through psychotic episode most likely

 

[F@#$]

Please call 911 you are going through psychotic episode most likely

Don't get them involved, if you think life sucks now just wait until the cops get into the mix.

I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die fuck fuckk I wanna die do fucking badly I can't do this anymore fuck fuck fuckkk. Fuck. I wanna die. I wanna tie a rope around my neck and feel it take my breath away. I can't live anymore it's too painful. I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this. I wanna die I really do. Fuck fuck why can't I die already? It's useless in my mind. I need to die. I hate myself. I really do hate myself.

I feel the same way. Always.

 

[walkingdead2023]

Don't get them involved, if you think life sucks now just wait until the cops get into the mix.

I feel the same way. Always.

Oh ok. I don't know she sounded miserable!

 

[F@#$]

Oh ok. I don't know she sounded miserable!

Agreed, but I know first hand how the law "helps " people. They'll help you get from bad to worse.

 

[walkingdead2023]

Agreed, but I know first hand how the law "helps " people. They'll help you get from bad to worse.

Terrible system! I didn't use them before so I wasn't sure… I hate this life I wish I can find something to help me go asap

 

[Circles]

It's the cognitive dissonance and dichotomy that the survival trait pushes your mind toward self preservation above all else. What we actually want is completely different from how our bodies work. I've come to terms that the only true way for people who are incapable of suicide despite being suicidal is that the pain you feel has to outweigh your fear of death and even then it's hard as hell to cross that threshold.

 

[Miku _fanboy101]

It's the cognitive dissonance and dichotomy that the survival trait pushes your mind toward self preservation above all else. What we actually want is completely different from how our bodies work. I've come to terms that the only true way for people who are incapable of suicide despite being suicidal is that the pain you feel has to outweigh your fear of death and even then it's hard as hell to cross that threshold.

I've already jumped and survived as it was into water. I'm ready to die but I have no way of being able to do it as I fail all the time.

 

[Circles]

I've already jumped and survived as it was into water. I'm ready to die but I have no way of being able to do it as I fail all the time.

I understand the frustration, even getting past the survival trait and crossing that threshold sometimes isn't enough to finally die. Every failed suicide attempt can be analyzed to see where you made mistakes because at the end of the day it is hard to die most especially for those whom are suicidal. Nothing I can say will help ease your pain so I don't want to say anything that sounds cliche as hell. I hope you can find the time to find some peace of mind even if momentarily and if not I certainly understand.

 

[Specific_Milk]

ARGHFHFHHFHGHGHFHHGHHGHGHGHHGHG I WANNA FUCKING DIE TOO

 

[Suspect_Device]

I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die fuck fuckk I wanna die do fucking badly I can't do this anymore fuck fuck fuckkk. Fuck. I wanna die. I wanna tie a rope around my neck and feel it take my breath away. I can't live anymore it's too painful. I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this. I wanna die I really do. Fuck fuck why can't I die already? It's useless in my mind. I need to die. I hate myself. I really do hate myself.

Sounds really similar to what I mutter to myself in the shower most mornings these days.