Method I am thinking about drowning in my own pool

[overthegard3nwall]

first of all, i want to introduce my situation. I m 22 years pls i have struggled with depression and anxiety for all my life. Last year my brother killed himself and left me with an empy soul. After that my life that was already depressing became unlivable. I don't have any reason to stay on this planet and despite all my effort to try and change my life even (with help from others) for the better it just became worst by the day. I have been thinking to ctb for a long time but all the methods are either too risky or not doable in my country. So i came up with a "plan" in my head. I have an house in the country side with a pretty big pool. My grandma used to stay there but now she moved and i have complete access to the house. I was thinking that i could just throw some heavy weight down tie myself to them and i would 100% not be able to swim back up, or maybe even tie myself up to the bottom of the pool. The only problem is that i m scared that if I tie myself with something not strong enough it may break. do you have any advice? do you think this is a good method?

(I know drowning is very painful but at this point i don't really care as long as the method works)

 

[overthegard3nwall]

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[darksouls]

I am very sorry for the loss of your brother

 

[avoid]

I know drowning is very painful but at this point i don't really care as long as the method works

Is drowning really that horrible? Please take a look at this study!

According to websites, drowning is horrible and torture. Burning lugs is like lungs on fire But here is a study that suggests otherwise: https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC8928428/ I extracted relevant information from that text below: I finally inhaled (water). All the tension in my...

sanctioned-suicide.net

I don't know much about drowning so I can't advice you. But the thread linked above shares a study on how survivors of a drowning accident describe their drowning experience. Maybe it's of use to you.

I also post because I notice your username and want to share the moral of that story (see spoiler). Also for anyone else who watched that series, or has 2 spare hours to watch it.

My condolences.

Spoiler: Over The Garden Wall (series)

Do NOT read the spoiler below if you have not watched the series yet.





Moral of the series Over The Garden Wall

Some viewers contend that the […] story is a hallucination — something the brothers collectively experienced while drowning.

As the woods die, Wirt resigns himself to never escaping the Unknown. The Beast, which embodies giving in, feeds on that exhaustion and despair. […] Most chapters see the brothers helping other lost souls find peace or contentment by resolving their problems.

Instead of giving in to the Beast — that thing that lurks inside us all and tells us to give into despair and stop fighting — Wirt chooses to look at what frightens him most […] and pulls back the curtain.

Source: https://screenrant.com/over-garden-wall-explained-meaning-real-hallucination/​