Venting I am the worst.

[yuri77]

I was foolish for thinking that I can have a future or make myself happy, I don't deserve anything nice and I hope I go to hell for being this way (if it even fucking exists) I will never be normal and everyone around me is going to resent me for this. I wish I were never born. I hate other people too but I hate myself the most, I can't do anything right and someone like me shouldn't exist. I feel sorry for people who met me or had to interact with me in any way. I feel bad for wasting my ex's time and hurting them. They deserved so much better and I hope they'll be happier after I ctb. I am sorry for being this way.

 

[MyPropellerWontSpin]

if hell is real I'll be right there with you <3
I interacted with u briefly on one of ur posts, and im really glad I did

don't apologize for the way you are, being normal is overrated >_<

 

[yuri77]

if hell is real I'll be right there with you <3
I interacted with u briefly on one of ur posts, and im really glad I did

don't apologize for the way you are, being normal is overrated >_<

Thank you<3 i checked your replies and we have a lot of similarities lol (being trans and ex muslim) I hope you can have a better future because you are a great person.

 

[MyPropellerWontSpin]

Thank you<3 i checked your replies and we have a lot of similarities lol (being trans and ex muslim) I hope you can have a better future because you are a great person.

aw ty im tearing up rn :(( its insane to me that I've come across so many trans and ex muslim folks on here, the world is so cruel to such groups
no UR a great person, wishing nothing but the best for you, hope the world will be kinder to you, you deserve it, seriously <33

 

[yuri77]

aw ty im tearing up rn :(( its insane to me that I've come across so many trans and ex muslim folks on here, the world is so cruel to such groups
no UR a great person, wishing nothing but the best for you, hope the world will be kinder to you, you deserve it, seriously <33

Our whole existence is seen as a sin to our family and people around us so yeah... I don't think I deserve kindness but I wish the best for all trans people out there.

 

[MyPropellerWontSpin]

Our whole existence is seen as a sin to our family and people around us so yeah... I don't think I deserve kindness but I wish the best for all trans people out there.

thats true, but we're more than that, everyone is a sinner in someone else's religion

 

[yuri77]

thats true, but we're more than that, everyone is a sinner in someone else's religion

I honestly just wanted to live a normal life and be accepted by my family but can't even do that so what is the point of living if I know i'll struggle forever

 

[MyPropellerWontSpin]

I honestly just wanted to live a normal life and be accepted by my family but can't even do that so what is the point of living if I know i'll struggle forever

yeah me too :( Im hoping to be able to find people who accept me, chosen family or whatever its called, but it feels impossible, and that still might not feel enough if u love ur family and know that they won't accept you because of something you can't control, it all sucks so much man