I am painfully torn between writing my suicide note and preparing to leave this world or making one final attempt to get better and keep living.

[MisanthropicLycan]

Do you know what get's to me the most ? is i can't even hold down a shitty 9-5 job so i can't even support myself its so degrading.

I haven't been able to do that in ages my friend. So you are definitely not alone.

 

[Matti]

I feel your pain. I have the same thoughts going on for me. I feel I really can't live like this and CBT is my only option. Yet still something keeps asking, what if things got better? What if....

At this point the "what if" just doesn't seem like enough anymore.

 

[SoupSnakes]

I think on some level we all feel a little lost. I am very content with my decision to CTB but sometimes still wonder if there would be something better for me in the future. It seems like a natural response.

I think if you're considering it so much, it's possible you could find happiness. Use whatever you can to help you. We're all here if you need us. My PM is always open if you want to vent or just chat shit.

 

[Tortured_empath]

Hold on, man. Life's precious. I dont care what anybody says. If you have any hope left, hold on.

 

[MisanthropicLycan]

Hold on, man. Life's precious. I dont care what anybody says. If you have any hope left, hold on.

Thank you man. I am definitely going to try my best. Wish me luck.

I think on some level we all feel a little lost. I am very content with my decision to CTB but sometimes still wonder if there would be something better for me in the future. It seems like a natural response.

I think if you're considering it so much, it's possible you could find happiness. Use whatever you can to help you. We're all here if you need us. My PM is always open if you want to vent or just chat shit.

Thank you for your kind and generous offer. I will probably take you up on it sometime soon. I am the king of venting so be forewarned. (;