I am in pain and still want to die.

[notmyusername]

If I had a gun in front of me, it would be so tempting to shoot myself. As of now, I don't have access to guns though.
I plan to set this up real nice for the people who care and have helped me, though. I want to leave music equipment behind as a gift to my ex boyfriend. And a car. So right now I just plan to work and work and work. Any job I can get my hands on.
My family gave up on me after I left rehab twice and refused to go back.
Anybody know some street drugs that would make an easy death?

 

[FuneralCry]

I also just wish to cease existing and I also find it painful to suffer in this existence but anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find what you are searching for.