Help i am angry and sick

[pretzelsandballoons]

"i love you"
you love me?
"i miss you"
you miss me??
i dont know you???
you don't know ME.

"i miss you"

"i miss you!"

"…open the door…please?…"
…

why do i people please when im so fucking bad at it
why do i hold myself back? can you let us go and commit suicide please. please? please. please i don't want to live in this reality ive put myself in. i could beg myself to kill our selves but im not ready
"i miss youu"


all i want is my dream guy and i just want everyone to leave me alone and i really really hope my parents will kick me out of this place so i can become homeless and perhaps that'll give me the motivation to finally do it
that's foolish though
i've been nothing but a parasite
finally. i thought about saying fuck it let's just hang ourselves now
but my welatives, mi familia
smh
at least my stomach hurts that's Good but i also don't wike it bc am weak n pathwetic ÚnÙ~~ owie ow
what if i just finish the last bit of my alcohol
what then huh

im gna blast music w my headphones