Venting I always find my way back here

[time.is.near]

Recently I've been feeling down and gross. My friend group and I discussed our views on death and mine was a CRY for help but no one seemed to notice. I feel gross that I'm alive, I always take sleeping pills during the day to make time go by faster. I'm getting more depressed as the days go by. I've been letting people use my car because I simply have no desire to get out and get dressed anymore. I think I've just given up, or am getting close to it.
Does anyone want to be my friend here? I just need people that know what it's like to hate yourself

 

[owano]

we can be friends!! i hope things get better for you and that people in your life begin to notice. I've been feeling the same way lately; miserable and lonely out of my mind yet nobody does anything about it. for me, its just been a cycle since i was a kid of feeling worthless due to no one ever caring about me, feeling isolated from everyone else and wondering whats wrong with me for people to easily make friends and all while im seemingly shunned from society. so i understand what its like to hate yourself. ive been trying to like myself more but its so hard

 

[DeeDog]

I know what you mean, ur not alone in hating urself. It's hard finding people who can truly empathise with u when u feel as shitty as you seem to. I'm always open to new friendships if u wanna talk or smth :) I do hope u end up being free of ur sadness one way or another.