Discussion How you deal with the idea that your parent might find you?

[babyneo1]

The idea scares me, imagine being a parent and see your child CTB

I'm having slowly second thoughts

 

[Macedonian1987]

This is literally the only thing that keeps me alive. If my parents weren't alive I would have ctb 10 years ago. In the last 10 years of my life nothing change for the better for me. Everything became much worse than it was before. Loneliness, health issues, loveless life... everything was already bad to begin with 10 years ago, but now is much worse.

 

[babyneo1]

This is literally the only thing that keeps me alive. If my parents weren't alive I would have ctb 10 years ago. In the last 10 years of my life nothing change for the better for me. Everything became much worse than it was before. Loneliness, health issues, loveless life... everything was already bad to begin with 10 years ago, but now is much worse.

This is the most difficult step for me, I can't live and going like this, but the sheer thought of parent finding you is scary mentally for me at least

 

[Afterglow]

For me, it's not even something I really think about, it doesn't bother me at all. If she wanted me alive she wouldn't have mentally, emotionally, physically, and sexually abused me as a child. I see this as retribution.

 

[babyneo1]

Oh sorry about it, didn't know

For me, it's not even something I really think about, it doesn't bother me at all. If she wanted me alive she wouldn't have mentally, emotionally, physically, and sexually abused me as a child. I see this as retribution.

But I feel like you can succeed and not take her into the journey or understand why she behaved like this

 

[suacide]

Honestly I'm not really sure. I already lost my mum last year so that's no longer a worry; though it's become just another incentive to leave too, but I fear what it'd do to my dad who's already… changing? His memory isn't as sharp, he's been telling me it's hard for him to think, he's a softer person these days and he has all kinds of physical health problems and terrible breathing issues.
I think ultimately, I just have to wait for him to pass.
Anyone else in my family isn't close enough to me to cry over it, they'd get over it even if they force a few tears and refer to me like a shallow tragedy for a while, or maybe even blame me for taking matters into my own hands.
Even then, I think life for my dad would move on. The only person whose life wouldn't is already gone.

 

[babyneo1]

Honestly I'm not really sure. I already lost my mum last year so that's no longer a worry; though it's become just another incentive to leave too, but I fear what it'd do to my dad who's already… changing? His memory isn't as sharp, he's been telling me it's hard for him to think, he's a softer person these days and he has all kinds of physical health problems and terrible breathing issues.
I think ultimately, I just have to wait for him to pass.
Anyone else in my family isn't close enough to me to cry over it, they'd get over it even if they force a few tears and refer to me like a shallow tragedy for a while, or maybe even blame me for taking matters into my own hands.
Even then, I think life for my dad would move on. The only person whose life wouldn't is already gone.

Think it would be really hard for the dad indeed, I have two relatively healthy parents in their 60s but I want to CTB, because of my lack of future and past mistakes and pain

 

[SUlClDE]

The idea scares me, imagine being a parent and see your child CTB

I'm having slowly second thoughts

When you are dead nothing matters, if you have second thoughts because of this, i honestly don't think you should commit suicide.

 

[babyneo1]

When you are dead nothing matters, if you have second thoughts because of this, i honestly don't think you should commit suicide.

I just don't like myself and life around me and no future prospect, just imagining pain I bring by being alive or CTBed

 

[PanaxMan]

The idea scares me, imagine being a parent and see your child CTB

I'm having slowly second thoughts

Good. Don't really care myself. Just the thought of my sister finding though

 

[meatballlover]

Really likely the number 1 reason why i cant pull through

 

[fckthislife]

I don't have parents

 

[stiarling]

The idea scares me, imagine being a parent and see your child CTB

I'm having slowly second thoughts

THat would be bad, one time they were about to catch me, and i freaked out and threw the ropes outside the window,

It will ruin EVERYTHING