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Spiritual survivor

Spiritual survivor

A born again but occasionally suicidal
Feb 13, 2022
510
Well at this point I'd be happy because I want to die. I just hope they would end me in the hospital with all their chemicals once I got too sick to function.
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
2,707
I'm perfectly happy for people who ask for terminal cancer to get their wish. Though those same people might not be so happy if they actually discovered what their wish really entails.

Well at this point I'd be happy because I want to die. I just hope they would end me in the hospital with all their chemicals once I got too sick to function.

In my country they'd keep you going for as long as possible with their chemicals and machines even once the painkillers no longer had much effect. Even if you refused life-sustaining treatment they wouldn't "end you". They'd let you suffer until you died naturally. However long that might take.

Terminal doesn't mean quick. And it doesn't mean you'd automatically be eligible for VAD. Especially if you live in a country where VAD isn't legal.
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
2,707
I'm really tired of the insensitive immature and downright stupid idea promoted on this forum that people who get terminal cancer are "lucky". I'm also tired of the twisted notion that people who say that terminal cancer would make them happy are far more worthy of consideration and respect than people who didn't want to die but are currently suffering the hell of a serious devastating and cruel disease which will eventually end their lives.
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,429
Great, because I know that if I don't CTB, I will be taken out sooner rather than later regardless.
 
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Whale_bones

Whale_bones

A gift to summon the spring
Feb 11, 2020
461
Extreme levels of physical pain are one of those things your mind simply can't comprehend until you actually experience it. I have Muscular Dystrophy and I don't wish this type of physical suffering on anyone. Diseases like this tear apart your body bit by bit, every day, every hour, every minute.

I know that so many people are oblivious to the reality, because they haven't experienced even one moment of this. But I don't wish for them to know, because no one deserves to experience this. It's one of those things that just shouldn't happen, but through the random chaos of existence, it does.

I do, however, wish that they listen to those of us who do speak from experience. I'm a strong believer in the right to a peaceful death at the time of your choosing, and both you and me should have access to that, but we don't. These aren't two issues against each other. I don't want you to be denied the right to die, or to face stigma or fear in the death process, and equating terrible diseases with an "easy" or "better" way to CTB, when nothing about them is easy or better, isn't the answer.

What you are lacking isn't the ability to wish yourself into having cancer, it's the same thing I am lacking: the right to a peaceful, legal death at the time of our choosing. That's the actual issue, and if we keep that in mind I believe we can respect each other's suffering.
 
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Chinaski

Chinaski

Arthur Scargill appreciator
Sep 1, 2018
3,468
I'm really tired of the insensitive immature and downright stupid idea promoted on this forum that people who get terminal cancer are "lucky". I'm also tired of the twisted notion that people who say that terminal cancer would make them happy are far more worthy of consideration and respect than people who didn't want to die but are currently suffering the hell of a serious devastating and cruel disease which will eventually end their lives.
Same, had to do as so many others already have and hammer that ignore button finally, jesus fucking christ on a bike
 
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SeenMoreThanEnough

Student
Sep 16, 2022
128
would you be sad? afraid to die? be in denial?
would you try you best to enjoy your last few months?
would it relieve some of the guilt of ctb ?
would you feel the choice to die was made for you for those who are unsure?
Honestly, I can't say, because I'd probably be tracked down and arrested and/or institutionalized. Put it this way -- when we're little, we make lists of what we want from Santa. When we're older, and have amassed some severe grievances in life, some of us make different types of lists. Make of that what you will.
 
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SamTam33

Warlock
Oct 9, 2022
763
It's not like wishing for something can make it come true, so I don't get all the "warnings."

I spend a lot of time researching the most painful/deadly/common cancers and my best bet is for colon cancer.

It runs in my family, but oddly enough, we keep from acknowledging that it was actually cancer that killed so-and-so.

Because neither relative openly spoke about it or sought treatment, everyone else acts like it wasn't cancer that killed them. SMH.

Fuck cancer.

Boohoohoo. It's painful. It hurts 😭

Cancer ain't got shit on the first 40-something years of my life.
 
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SamTam33

Warlock
Oct 9, 2022
763
Wait, you are in your forties?
I've been around the block. I know how to stoop down to your childish level when needed. And rise above it if necessary. I'm extremely versatile.
 
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Message In A Bottle

Message In A Bottle

📜 Just me, myself, and I
Apr 1, 2022
376
I'd weigh my odds - Leaving by my own hand before taking any chances to experience that type of pain - If one thinks it's bad now, just imagine being in insufferable, physical pain on top of it.
 
freedompass

freedompass

Warlock
Jan 27, 2021
768
It's not like wishing for something can make it come true, so I don't get all the "warnings."

I spend a lot of time researching the most painful/deadly/common cancers and my best bet is for colon cancer.

It runs in my family, but oddly enough, we keep from acknowledging that it was actually cancer that killed so-and-so.

Because neither relative openly spoke about it or sought treatment, everyone else acts like it wasn't cancer that killed them. SMH.

Fuck cancer.

Boohoohoo. It's painful. It hurts 😭

Cancer ain't got shit on the first 40-something years of my life.
Edgy as fuck bro
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,652
It's not like your SI goes away with terminal cancer. Instead of being afraid to off yourself in the moment, imagine having that SI fear stretched out over months or even years while you wait to die. Plus all the excruciating pain and suffering.

Fuck that shit.
 
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oneeyed

Arcanist
Oct 11, 2022
412
On the outside I would save face for the sake of family but on the inside I would be happy. Also knowing I would be given strong painkillers and the opportunity to get MAiD when it's too unbearable.
 
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BrutalWorldNot4me

BrutalWorldNot4me

Member
Apr 7, 2023
31
Well my spine is already degenerating. If it was in a good spot, and your nerves are already gone, youd die fast. Can't feel pain if your nerves gone from spinal deformity lol
 
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nosoul

Arcanist
Apr 1, 2023
453
personally getting some sort of terminal illness with a few months to live would be like winning the lottery to me. i would be ecstatic. it also means you would likely be approved for euthanasia to help speed up the process. moreover, at least people will sympathize with you and you could have loved ones around in your final moments.

as someone with severe mental health issues including anhedonia and a traumatic past, i would be unable to enjoy my last few months. i would just want to sleep through most of it or be on drugs. i have reached the stage where i want out as soon as possible. everyday is just so much suffering and pain and distractions are not even working like they used to.
I feel the same way, I almost feel bedridden I'm so tired and I can't eat, and depression, so you feel no feelings also?
 
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BrutalWorldNot4me

Member
Apr 7, 2023
31
I feel the same way, I almost feel bedridden I'm so tired and I can't eat, and depression, so you feel no feelings also?
Oh my god. That's a mood except the only feelings for me is sadness and "even after death is better". I don't think hell exists but if it does still better then the real world imho. i hear after death is peaceful and beautiful no matter what.
 
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downndone2

Living in misery
Jan 23, 2022
1,270
I'd rare my pain at 10, get the best pain meds, and take them all relatively quickly
 
FullCircle

FullCircle

Member
Nov 20, 2018
96
I lost both of my parents to cancer. I'd live til I'm uncomfortable, save up money, party, then ctb.
 
charlotte_

charlotte_

Arcanist
Mar 12, 2023
435
I would just ask to be euthanized immediately. It's better that way. I can't bring myself to deal with a fuck ton of pain and suffering until I eventually die, and can't let my loved one see me die in such a horrible state
 
WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,429
Even if i had cancer and it was operable and curable, I'd let it go untreated and kill me. My life isn't worth the fight.
 
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