How would you feel if you were diagnosed with Inoperable cancer and what would you do?

[HermitLonerGuy]

would you be sad? afraid to die? be in denial?
would you try you best to enjoy your last few months?
would it relieve some of the guilt of ctb ?
would you feel the choice to die was made for you for those who are unsure?

 

[universe]

I would jump for joy, I would be super happy! I would refuse all treatments (chemotherapy, radiotherapy) and just take painkillers. After that, I wouldn't do anything special, I'd wait to die, that's what I've always wanted.

I don't think I would be in denial because as a child I dreamed of having cancer and dying in a hospital bed. I have always considered death. Even as an adult, I loved the idea of getting seriously ill and dying, or catching someone else's cancer.
Today I'm just waiting for CTB, I don't want to do anything in particular, I don't want to enjoy my last moments. This would arrange a natural death for me because the CTB is still very stigmatized, I know that my relatives will not respect my wishes, will not hesitate to introduce themselves into my life and will not understand my gesture.

 

[toasterbath]

personally getting some sort of terminal illness with a few months to live would be like winning the lottery to me. i would be ecstatic. it also means you would likely be approved for euthanasia to help speed up the process. moreover, at least people will sympathize with you and you could have loved ones around in your final moments.

as someone with severe mental health issues including anhedonia and a traumatic past, i would be unable to enjoy my last few months. i would just want to sleep through most of it or be on drugs. i have reached the stage where i want out as soon as possible. everyday is just so much suffering and pain and distractions are not even working like they used to.

 

[Sad_Sack]

The first thing I would do is petition for euthanasia as I am in California and with a terminal illness you have the right to die. I would also feel relief and intense sadness that I would be leaving my wife and children. I need this to be over but it is definitely not an easy thing. I love them with all if my heart. Today is Halloween and it kills me that I can feel nothing g but pain and mental decline.

 

[hungry_ghost]

Basically similar to what others have said here.

I have been considering "praying" for cancer.

Apparently the Brazilian writer Clarice Lispector did exactly that because she was too afraid to kill herself, and she ended up dying later of ovarian cancer.

Have you recently been diagnosed?

 

[outrider567]

would you be sad? afraid to die? be in denial?
would you try you best to enjoy your last few months?
would it relieve some of the guilt of ctb ?
would you feel the choice to die was made for you for those who are unsure?

It would just push up the date to CTB sooner

 

[fettuccinenoodle]

That would be the dream wouldn't it. You know there is a way out. It brings a smile to my face thinking about it and real joy I haven't felt in months.

Of course I would deny any treatment and if anyway, I would try to expedite the process.

I'd say quit my job, spend time with family, travel, experience stuff. But nothing brings me joy so it would be a farce to continue to show up for other people like I am already. I can hardly eat, sleep, have a moment of peace in my mind without being on edge and thinking of a way out. I would pretend to be happy since I was 10/11? (31) and this last 2 years the effort I am able to put into that is so low. I disassociate, I don't care what others have to say its all mundane and ignorant so I avoid it at all costs. I never fit in I alway felt I saw the world for what it was, Ignorance is bliss but I haven't had that luxury.

No best to get out as soon as I can.

 

[universe]

i would be unable to enjoy my last few months. i would just want to sleep through most of it or be on drugs.

What you say touches me, because it is my daily life. Currently, I can't do anything with my days except stay in bed and wait for the CTB. I am unable to profit one way or another.

 

[lemonhoney]

Relief.

 

[outatime_85]

I would be relieved.

As no one would miss me, and I have no one to answer to, no girlfriend, no wife, etc.

So I would simply ask the doctor to estimate my length of survival time without medical intervention, and go live out my days without a care in the world.

When the illness progressed to a point where I could not function, then I would probably just turn out the lights.

 

[Murasa]

I've been thinking about it a few days ago, because I had aches that gave me a horrible scare. I came to the conclusion that I wouldn't care until it started to hurt a lot, I wouldn't try to fight the disease anyway, I have seen how tortuous the fight against these diseases can be, for me it isn't worth it nor is it that I want to keep living. I think that would save me from getting the rest of the materials for my method, with the cons that I'll be subject to a fixed countdown.

 

[bigbeatmanifesto]

Basically similar to what others have said here.

I have been considering "praying" for cancer.

Apparently the Brazilian writer Clarice Lispector did exactly that because she was too afraid to kill herself, and she ended up dying later of ovarian cancer.

Have you recently been diagnosed?

I don't do it so much any more but I used to try and visualise or manifest cancer in my body but imagining my stomach glowing red and being attacked by the cancer. Its funny that people always say, 'watch your thoughts because they become your reality' yet when I try it, it doesn't work

 

[GrumpyFrog]

I don't live in a place where euthanasia is legal and I have no means to travel to a place like that. So I'm not delusional about prospects of such a turn of events. It would make my already very shitty situation a lot shittier. If the point is to just sit around and wait for a natural death, I don't need cancer for that, that's what everyone does already, they just don't look up to death and try not to think about it. Natural death will eventually catch up to everyone, whether they want it or not.
I don't have anyone who's going to be holding my hand in my death bed either way and I couldn't care less what people are going to think about the way I died once I'm dead. So I would "profit" from cancer in any way, it will just give me extra pain on top of an already shitty life. If I was unsure about CTB, I would certainly prefer something good to pull me the other way and not something terrible to give me the final push.

 

[spacehardware]

I feel like this is a really harsh and insensitive response to the ears of anyone who is painfully, terminally ill and doesn't want to die, and any of their loved ones who aren't ready to lose them. But for me, it's my perfect scenario. So much of what's keeping me in this insufferable existence is how much it would hurt my family if I ctb, or ctb in a way that is obvious it's suicide. I know my mum would be completely destroyed. Of course, she'd be destroyed if I died either way, but if I died naturally or with a terminal illness, she wouldn't have to hate me, she could hate the cancer, or the disease or whatever it was. I wouldn't have to feel the guilt of traumatising my family unnecessarily. And I could die with my loved ones around me, say all the thank yous and other words I want to say but can't without arousing suspicion. I wish it could be that way, I wish that all the time.

 

[Chinaski]

Cancer is fucking horrible, you'd be better off wishing to be struck by lightning.

 

[resolutory]

Interesting that most people seem to be saying they'd be happy. Although I'd be happy at the fact of dying, I wouldn't necessarily be relieved at finding out I had cancer as, from what I understand, it's often quite painful and probably not a good way to go out, I'd imagine? I don't know a lot about what it's actually like to have it though, so I might be mistaken.

 

[fettuccinenoodle]

Interesting that most people seem to be saying they'd be happy. Although I'd be happy at the fact of dying, I wouldn't necessarily be relieved at finding out I had cancer as, from what I understand, it's often quite painful and probably not a good way to go out, I'd imagine? I don't know a lot about what it's actually like to have it though, so I might be mistaken.

Yes, I know it will be painful. But wont they give you drugs to cope with pain and dealing with it?

 

[Chinaski]

Yes, I know it will be painful. But wont they give you drugs to cope with pain and dealing with it?

I hope you all get what you want, seriously.

 

[GrumpyFrog]

Yes, I know it will be painful. But wont they give you drugs to cope with pain and dealing with it?

It's going to be the same crapshoot as giving depressed people other drugs to cope with other pain. Sometimes the drugs work well, sometimes they only help to a degree or even not at all, sometimes they give you horrible side effects, you change drugs, change dozages, try different things until eventually if (in case of cancer it's more "when" then "if") things get bad enough that nothing will take all the pain away anymore and they will tell you to just deal with it and maybe try meditation or something like that.

 

[resolutory]

Yes, I know it will be painful. But wont they give you drugs to cope with pain and dealing with it?

I guess so, but I'm pretty sure it's still considered immensely painful, even with drugs. It would be nice if they had painkillers that genuinely 100% of the time completely got rid of pain, but I'm not sure such a thing currently exists with such certainty or is used.

Again, I could be wrong though, don't know much about it. But however much I want to die, I've never particularly fancied getting cancer, or some other illness, and slowly dying over the course of however many months. Sounds pretty unpleasant to me. But I hope I'm wrong.

My first priority if I was diagnosed with such a thing would be figuring out how to kill myself before it gets too bad.

 

[FuneralCry]

I would just wait to die. I mean that's all I can do. At least those who have a terminal illness don't have to plan ctb methods and worry about the fear of failure or something going wrong as they try to leave this world. We live in a world that makes suicide so unnecessarily difficult after all.

And at least those with a terminal illness can tell others about the fact that they will die, there is a lot of stigma and secrecy surrounding suicide and those left behind will have to deal with the shock of someone ctb. But it would be ideal if they allowed those with terminal illness assisted dying, it's very cruel how the society denies this, they would rather prolong people's suffering.

But it seems as though only those who wish to live get terminal illness and not suicidal people. The world is very unfair like that. But I would never be sad that I was going to die, in fact the opposite. I despise existing and it's a terrible thing to be born into this world. To die is not a sad, tragic event but rather it's freedom from everything. There is nothing more comforting than the thought of being dead.

 

[Chinaski]

I would just wait to die. I mean that's all I can do. At least those who have a terminal illness don't have to plan ctb methods and worry about the fear of failure or something going wrong as they try to leave this world. We live in a world that makes suicide so unnecessarily difficult after all.

Brb, just going to the cancer ward to spread this crumb of comfort.

 

[Pluto]

It would legitimise suicide as a means of preventing a slow and painful death, which is otherwise a concept largely foreign to society. It would not be a good idea to stick around, because even the treatments to delay the inevitable are utterly gruesome.

 

[makethepainstop]

My mom went through that with lung cancer. I can promise you all, there is no way in hell I would go for chemo. No Sir, not this boy, uh-huh not a chance! Chemo makes you sick as hell on top of the cancer, hair falls out.....no thank you!

 

[Hollowillow]

would you be sad? afraid to die? be in denial?
would you try you best to enjoy your last few months?
would it relieve some of the guilt of ctb ?
would you feel the choice to die was made for you for those who are unsure?

I'd probably cure with vitamin c. Can cure nuclear radiation.

If not. Me would be... Sad. Scared. Relieved. Try Fun stuff. Tell demanding people fuck you. Feel free. Doomed.

Might outlive many. Hit by car. Can happen again anytime. Live while can. I can't too sick. Envy. Give me your cancer... No one love me. No miss me. Wish could take it from you

personally getting some sort of terminal illness with a few months to live would be like winning the lottery to me. i would be ecstatic. it also means you would likely be approved for euthanasia to help speed up the process. moreover, at least people will sympathize with you and you could have loved ones around in your final moments.

as someone with severe mental health issues including anhedonia and a traumatic past, i would be unable to enjoy my last few months. i would just want to sleep through most of it or be on drugs. i have reached the stage where i want out as soon as possible. everyday is just so much suffering and pain and distractions are not even working like they used to.

Love you sad toasty. Feel same.

My mom went through that with lung cancer. I can promise you all, there is no way in hell I would go for chemo. No Sir, not this boy, uh-huh not a chance! Chemo makes you sick as hell on top of the cancer, hair falls out.....no thank you!

Chemo is poison it causes cancer *hugs*

 

[ClownMe]

Cancer is nasty and there would be no way that I would go for Chemo because that shit looks torturous. A terminal diagnosis would probably push me towards ctb similar to something like in the case of Robin Williams.

 

[Hollowillow]

Cancer is nasty and there would be no way that I would go for Chemo because that shit looks torturous. A terminal diagnosis would probably push me towards ctb similar to something like in the case of Robin Williams.

Can't figure out how to die like robin... Friend tried to help but im too dumb

 

[AliceTheGoon]

If all I had was cancer I'd be scared and anxious and follow whatever treatment regimen was recommended. If I got cancer on top of the degenerative illness that brought me here I would just let it kill me.

 

[bluem00n]

Might be a good idea to read some of the horror stories of what it's really like to die of cancer at https://deathwithdignity.org/stories/ ... not nice, not nice at all.

 

[botch3d]

All you saying you'd be happy with cancer don't have a clue what you are saying . It's one of the worst ways to die