If you were going to give yourself the best day you could before ctb what would you do?

[ignorableaurochs]

don't know don't enjoy anything would rather just have the end

 

[itsmeagain]

I'm going to end it in a a few days. I'm a serially emotionally abusive person and a cheat.

I have already given my partner my bank details so that they can have some help when I'm gone.

I was depressed before I screwed everything up and I have given myself a reason to hate myself and a reason to die.

So, if you were going to ctb what would you do on your last days?

I have no passport so leaving the country isn't an option.

What a beautiful question…. I love it so much. So tragic…

I would cash all my money and grab credit cards like crazy, apply for loans like crazy and use all of it to buy as many legal drugs as I could!

Then, I'd take them all with a huge cocktail, and buy a nice tool to help me CTB!

I wouldn't tell anyone where I'd be going, but I'd make sure I took ALL of the drugs at once, and see if I could feel pure bliss… just one more time.

Anything!

Plus, tons of food, water…. Everything I'd need. Either I'm drugging my brain until it breaks, fixes, or until I end it!

What a beautiful question…. I love it so much. So tragic…

I would cash all my money and grab credit cards like crazy, apply for loans like crazy and use all of it to buy as many legal drugs as I could!

Then, I'd take them all with a huge cocktail, and buy a nice tool to help me CTB!

I wouldn't tell anyone where I'd be going, but I'd make sure I took ALL of the drugs at once, and see if I could feel pure bliss… just one more time.

Anything!

Plus, tons of food, water…. Everything I'd need. Either I'm drugging my brain until it breaks, fixes, or until I end it!

I also hope that you find your peace. We are here with you.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Eating good food would definitely be part of it. And spending time in nature to recall what the Earth feels like.

Exactly this for me too. There are still places I would like to visit. Nothing hugely grand. I wouldn't need to leave the country to do it. Plus, I love food.

Sometimes I wonder if it really matters though. Whether it's even worth the effort. So many things end up not being worth it. That's weirdly reasuring to me though- in a way. It proves to myself that this world doesn't really offer me enough to want to stay- if even the best time I could have here still seems dull.

 

[Crow_88]

Sometimes I wonder if it really matters though. Whether it's even worth the effort. So many things end up not being worth it. That's weirdly reasuring to me though- in a way. It proves to myself that this world doesn't really offer me enough to want to stay- if even the best time I could have here still seems dull.

Yeah, the fact that nothing gives pleasure really is proof of the uselessness of it all.