How would I make this easier on my family? (What remains of it)

[WanderingApathetic]

I am done. I am failing at everything I try, relationships never work and my dad died. I have my sister, mom, and uncle left who love me dearly. My dad died a year ago, I want to join him but after experiencing his loss I have no idea how to get the rest of my family to cope with losing me. I already tried via car a few years ago, but before losing my dad I had no idea what it means to lose someone you love.
I know the answer is probably no, but is there a way to make it more conceivable? A letter that explains how I have been feeling over the last few years? I feel that would make them feel even more guilty for not seeing this coming.
Any advice?

 

[lukas19]

Just a letter saying you love them, you are in torment, nothing they could/say would not have stopped you, you will be at peace and make sure an emergency worker finds your corpse not them.

 

[hellispink]

They will be hurt for a few weeks and probably months. Nothing can make it hurt less. But one thing is for sure, they will move on and forget about it. That is how humans are. So no need to worry much cause they will eventually forget about it.

 

[Hollowman]

They will be hurt for a few weeks and probably months. Nothing can make it hurt less. But one thing is for sure, they will move on and forget about it. That is how humans are. So no need to worry much cause they will eventually forget about it.

The only way they'll forget about it is if they get dementia or some kind of brain damage.

 

[SeeminglyFine]

They will be hurt for a few weeks and probably months. Nothing can make it hurt less. But one thing is for sure, they will move on and forget about it. That is how humans are. So no need to worry much cause they will eventually forget about it.

Cant agree with that, a suicide that happened in my family still makes people very emotional 30 years later.
A lot of avoidance even mentioning the person, to avoid the pain.

Just a letter saying you love them, you are in torment, nothing they could/say would not have stopped you, you will be at peace and make sure an emergency worker finds your corpse not them.

This makes the most sense to me, my friend used to tell me he would prefer to make it look like an accident so that his parents will never have to think: what did i do wrong, how could i have been a better parent

So ye, i guess making them understand that theres nothing they could've done to prevent it is a viable option

 

[FuneralCry]

I would personally see it as being beneficial to write a letter as it could potentially give them some closure and understanding if there is some sort of explanation, but apart from that there is nothing much that can be done to make it easier for them.

The fact is that grief and loss are inevitable in life, as even if we don't ctb we will all have to die and lose everything someday and whatever happens in this world after we are gone could simply never be our concern as we won't be there at that point, so I personally could never feel bad about leaving others behind. Eventually we likely won't even exist in the memories of others and this is just the reality, but anyway if people don't want to experience loss then they shouldn't bring life into this world in the first place.