• Hey Guest,

    We wanted to share a quick update with the community.

    Our public expense ledger is now live, allowing anyone to see how donations are used to support the ongoing operation of the site.

    👉 View the ledger here

    Over the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.

    If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC):
    Ethereum (ETH):
    Monero (XMR):
T

throbinhood

Member
Aug 3, 2026
22
Im really scared because it would mean I'd have to live longer ,potentially be institutionalised plus it's just plain embarrassing.
Another fear of mine is getting my body violated before it's found properly and cremated.
 
  • Like
  • Love
  • Aww..
Reactions: jusbug, pthnrdnojvsc, rottenbeing and 2 others
F

Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
5,113
I am not worried about it at all because I will not make an attempt unless I know that I am going to be alone for hours. My partner works on my days off, so I have an entire day to myself if I need
 
  • Like
Reactions: limenlux and letsnotmakeittoo22
letsnotmakeittoo22

letsnotmakeittoo22

I Have No Long Term Plans For This Body
Nov 24, 2024
77
Happened last attempt. Cue ambulance and crisis services.

Then getting handcuffed ( I was 100% not a threat. I was just crying. The bruises from the handcuffs caused more pain and left severe bruising. Whereas the ligature marks were basically non existent from my attempt. ) and paraded into the hospital in cuffs after being out in the back of a cop car. Get to everyone staring at me like I'm a criminal.

Spent night in the loony bin.

Fucking terrible. Terrible. Terrible.
 
  • Aww..
  • Wow
Reactions: pthnrdnojvsc, throbinhood and Russell1882
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
49,755
I understand, it's just such terrible extreme cruelty how many humans want to do all they can to stop others ceasing to exist peacefully, I find it so horrific how trying to cease existing can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering in this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured, all I want is to never suffer again.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: letsnotmakeittoo22, throbinhood and rottenbeing
enne

enne

blood sport
May 13, 2026
133
they couldn't cuff me bc of the wounds I guess, plus they had given me fent during the procedure but I was stuck in a wheel chair with two nurses and a cop still sloshed from the night anyway. I still can't believe I got caught, but hey - shouldn't of kept the door open

being caught again, I absolutely cannot handle. i cannot do that again.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: letsnotmakeittoo22
endlesschatter

endlesschatter

CTB asap
Aug 30, 2026
164
Very much because i can't risk getting medical help in middle of attempt otherwise the entire effort will be waste
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: letsnotmakeittoo22

Similar threads

nails
Replies
4
Views
531
Suicide Discussion
darksouls
darksouls
PersonBeforeLife
Replies
4
Views
389
Suicide Discussion
PersonBeforeLife
PersonBeforeLife
sleepytime5
Replies
1
Views
263
Suicide Discussion
discernment
discernment
C
Replies
17
Views
668
Suicide Discussion
cursedcassettes
C